why are some things soooo hard???

it´s sooooo depressing..
the only light I saw at the end of this dark time called "school-time until the end of october" was to fly to Bristol in my holidays...
and whats now? every damn flight straight to bristol costs about 200 euro (I´m sorry I´m not a millionaire!!!???), and every flight to london stansted I could pay hasn´t got a busline that fits into the times of the flights..
well I could sleep at the airport in london, great idea isn´t it??
it reaaally frustrates me because I was sooo lookin foreward to get back to britain..it fucks me up...BULLSHIT!!
I´m out! maybe I should start a 24/7 prayer-time to see some miracles...