breakin out - NOW!

Wann faellt der tropfen der das Fass zum ueberlaufen bringt?
wo bleibt der schmerz der die schmerzgrenze uebersteigt?
wo bleibt die Last die mein knie zum beugen bringt?
Damit ich vor dir meinem Herrn zerbreche.

es kommt die zeit,
mach mich bereit
zum ausbruch aus der Mittelmaeßigkeit

Ich hab ja keine andre wahl mehr
denn die welt liegt schon zu weit von mir zurueck.
hab ja keine andere wahl mehr
du nur gibst das Leben das sich wirklich lohnt.
(Samuel Harfst - Ausbruch aus der Mittelmaeßigkeit)


yeah thats what I want..out of this middlingness..into a life thats everything but middling.
I have enough from this daily grind..every day the same shit..whats this for?
I wanna reach my goals but it seems like Im rather running away from them..thats pretty depressing..
I dont know what I should do, the only thing that comes to my mind is fighting!
Fighting for my wishes and dreams. And trust! Trust in the lord that hes with me and that he still has everything in his hand.
And if fighting means that I have to learn business stuff all day and night long until it comes out of my ears, nose and mouth again - I will do. And I wont stop until Im through this shit here..I wont stop because Im strong..strong through christ and nothings gonna hold me down.
And if trust means that Ill have to sit in front of a wall 24 hours doing NOTHING, eatin nothing, drinkin nothing, no music, just silence, nothing but sitting there, staring and praying and TRUSTING that ANYTHING happens - I will do!
If thats what I need to do - going into some extremities - I will do!
because if thats the only thing that brings me to that f****n goal I wanna reach I have no other chance..
and Im gonna start NOW.immediately. with learning and learning and learning..