just the way life is..

it seems like it would get harder and harder everyday to realize that its really over.
I really miss u. Im thinking about u too much.
I miss your voice. I miss to hear ur breath beside me when you sleep. I miss to feel ur hand in mine. I miss ur stupid jokes and the way you made me laugh. I miss ur smell and the look in your eyes that tells me that u love me without any word.
I miss the time we shared. and we shared EVERYTHING.I miss ur bathroom and I miss the look out of ur window.I miss how we walked through fields and I miss how we drove around. I miss talkin to u. and most of all I miss u.
we really shared everything.now Im alone..and it hurts to let u go.it huts so much, it tears my heart apart.I dont wanna admit that I miss u.I cant tell anybody because I dont wanna show.
and now Im desperate and write it into this stupid blog because I know that almost nobody reads that shit.thats the reason I can admit that I miss u and that it hurts like hell.
I miss u so..we shared everything...

the last day were so busy..and I the only thing I feel is tired. Im sooo tired. I only wanna sleep so I dont need to think of all those things. I gotta do too much in school and it seems like the last few days I did nothing but writing some stupid texts for my essay or doing some other things that are important for school. its so exhausting..thats exactly the life I didnt wanna choose because its boring and senseless..
thank God that Ive got Jesus. hes the only one who gives strength..and hes the only reason for me to go on - to reach my first goal: get back to england!