Clinging to the cross

My soul is weak
My heart is numb
I cannot see
But still my hope is found in You
I’ll hold on tightly
You will never let me go
For Jesus, You will never fail
Jesus, You will never fail

Simply to the cross i cling
Letting go of all earthly things
Clinging to the cross
Mercy’s found a way for me
Hope is here as i am free
Jesus, You are all i need
Clinging to the cross

Even darkness is as light to You, my Lord
So light the way and lead me home
To that place where every tear is wiped away
For Jesus, You will never fail
Jesus, You will never fail

Simply to the cross i cling
Letting go of all earthly things
Clinging to the cross
Mercy’s found a way for me
Hope is here as i am free
Jesus, You are all i need
Clinging to the cross

What a Saviour, what a story
You were crucified but now You are alive
So amazing, such a mystery
You were crucified but now You are alive

Simply to the cross i cling
Letting go of all earthly things
Clinging to the cross
Mercy’s found a way for me
Hope is here as i am free
Jesus, You are all i need
Clinging to the cross


seems like I really found out whats going wrong in my life since a few days!
maybe I have to learn it the hard way, but if I dont understand it the easy way there´s no other chance ;)
I just took some time for daddy in heaven..so I just lay down on my bed and started to pray..after that I did some worship, but I gave it up soon because I realized that praying is more important for me at the moment..and I told God about my life, my hurtings and all that stuff.
Later I went to a walk through my hometown. and as I walked through the streets I found my fault. It´s not a big thing, well in fact it is but its not that difficult to find out..
I FIX WAY TOO MUCH ON THE BIG THINGS.
what I mean with that? All I think about at the moment is that I want to experience something big, something impressive, some miracles and healings, some people who turn around to Jesus and what do I know..
all of those things are very important and its still my wish to see that stuff...
but because nothing happened here the last days (how could? I didnt do ANYTHING for it) I was frustrated because I didnt experience anything..and I sat here at this Computer and I was bored to death..what is wrong about that? its simple: i´m not even able to live a relationship with my daddy. Can´t take some time alone with him..alone with him..
Instead of that I hang around at my computer and ask myself why everything is boring..
Goodness I´m really stupid sometimes!
I really made a decision FOR God and AGINST my computer today.
so the next time I really dont wanna hang around here that much..because its worth it to stay with daddy..when I walked around this evening I didnt want to turn back home because it was just wonderful to walk around and to know "God´s there! He´s right here with me!"
THATS what I wanna experience the rest of my holidays! (well and of course all my life!)