its a beautiful day...

its a beautiful day...the sun is shining and its a bit warmer than the last days..it brightens my mood because I hate that coldness when I know that we actually still have summer.
and now its weekend, and Im so glad about that..the last week was very exhausting..always running around, doing lots of stuff for school..I know that I have to learn this weekend and that I have to do my homework..but I really really hope to get some time for my lovely daddy. because my days were just too busy to take some time, and thats not okay. I really wanna spend some time with god and I need it..but its really difficult to find some freetime at the moment..of course I know hes with me in school and everywhere and I talk to him like i do with friends..but its something different to take some extra time..
Im just trying to make the best out of my situation in school..Im trying to understand, Im trying to do my homework and Im even trying to follow the lessons and talk some quality stuff there..
its hard because it still feels like Im a prisoner there..and still it feels like I wouldnt belong here..
But Im trying to give my best in this last year and Im trying to reach the abitur..if Im not good enough its okay..because I know I gave everything..
Still I miss u and still I feel very lost without u..still I dont how to forget u and the time we shared..but theres nothing I can do but wait..even if I hate waiting..maybe I should train to be patient..
So now Im gonna do my business studies homework and Im gonna go for a walk because I really wanna get out into the sun to spend some time with the highest and the greatest!
thank u for this wonderful day Lord!