Jesus gave me a new point of view

what´s going on here?
I´m getting more confused every day..
the last two days were very hard..because I thought I already made my desicion about breakin up school and going to england and stuff.
but yesterday I had a conversation with my sister..it was a very serious conversation, maybe I could say it was god who opened my eyes a bit more..so she told me not to give up and to try again and go on..so I prayed and I said to jesus that he should show me where to go and which way I should choose..I keep my eyes open..and today there were two signs that told me not to give up:
1st one was in the sermon of the preacher in notzingen. he talked about the way to god...about the journey of Mose and the Israelis..they had to walk through the desert for 40 years..and so many times they struggled and they blamed god and they wished they would have died in Egypt..just because it was so hard..and he said that sometimes you need to go through the dirt and the hardest times if you wanna follow jesus´way..so what do I do at the moment?
well I could say I´m in the hardest time of my life (that´s a fact). Don´t know which way to go, don´t know what to do..wheter I should stay or just go away..I know there´s only ONE man who knows what I should and what I will do..JESUS!
the 2nd sign was in DOMINO today..Ruby did a real good sermon..it was so awesome..it was about being obediant to god..and she said that we people always try to find gods way for us and that we are very focused on going away to missions and stuff..but that´s not what it´s about..there´s no problem in being on missions someday..yeah I really want that anytime..
But god puts us on places and he knows why. He puts me there - and he didn´t do that without reason..so I´m here and I have to try to make the best out of it..
So I made my desicion: I´ll try to get through class 13.1! And if I´m still that bad and if I still do not have a course in BWL..then I´ll break up..because then I took every chance I had and there is nothing I didn´t try..And I prayed to god..and I said if he wants me to get my ABI he´ll let me pass BWL..and if he has another way for me he´ll "let me fail"..and then I know for sure what´s going on..it´s a kinda hard decision because I loved the thought that I would be free after my last examination yesterday..it´s hard to give up that thought..on the other hand I think about what´s possible with ABI..jesus when I got this shit I really have the chance to GO AWAY..and then I can really go away, maybe much longer because I have this fuckin abi and I can start study or an apprenticeship whenever I want..then I have the time to really GO FOR JESUS!
I´m not very happy about the thought to go on in school..but I promise that I´ll give EVERYTHING to get as far as I can..!
that´s it and nothing more..