crazy world..but god stands over everything!

Today I needed to realize one more time how SICK this word is.
I just watched such a stupid series on MTV.."MTV MASTERS"..it was about famous people and their lives...and jesus, I ask myself if the people who made this series are really normal or if they have mental problems..I´m sorry, but they really find it funny to rejoice theirselves in the fact that these people are fucked up, empty and that their life is an only mess.
they find it funny to say that you either have to be a borderliner or you have to be shizophrenic to survive it being a star...
jesus, what´s this for a world we´re living in???
and that´s not everything..they find it good that those people are sick..because so they have something to laugh about and to amuse themselves. how sick is that??
it´s a fucking crazy world...

In addict this day way very confusing because I heard things that really surprised me..but I don´t really believe this..I know him and I don´t think that he would..feel like that..I don´t believe that!
But I´m too weak to do anything at the moment..and I don´t wanna do anything at all..because I don´t always wanna be the one who tries and tries..I´ll only wait..
because the only thing I´ll do the next time is spending my time with god, because that´s the most important thing at the moment! I don´t wanna be the one who always is the one who´s running after somebody, and I also don´t wanna be the one who wants to hear reproaches and assumptions all the time to feel like the biggest asshole in this worl..no longer..not with me!
Do what you want, you won´t get me down, no matter what u tell me!