trust and ppl

its just so typical..I guess u reli didnt change at all..
I thought I could trust u, and that ur not the same u were before..but hey..she?? she of all ppl?? I reli thought u would have more taste...whatever..its ur life!!
Its just one more evidence that I shouldnt trust ppl that much...or that I shouldnt turn away from my requirements..becos Jesus made me the way I am for a reason..and he filled my heart with desires for a reason..I reli should be more careful with my myself..
Im a princess of God and being lways in the 2nd row isnt enough for me. I deserve it to be treated as someone precious. I deserve it to be fully loved and not just a bit.
And yeah, Im gonna smile becos thats also something I deserve to!!
One more time I figured out that GOD is the ONLY one I can fully trust..that hes the only one who understands my desires, my thoughts(even if I dont understand them) and my life.
I reli dont know what Im searching for in this life...Im searching for more..but what do I want more?? I have Jesus..and I have a hand ful of REAL friends I can fully trust. And I have one girl I love more than anyone else in this world..becos I can tell her whatever I want and shes listening, shes praying for me and she understands, even if its foolish.
And thats all I need..what do I want more??
theres only one more thing I firgured out yesterday: I need a man whos watching The lion king with me ;) and who loves it the way I do! what an awesome film!!! <3