trust in u...

Im honest: I cant wait to leave this place..ANYWHERE!! but actually Id most love to finally leave to england. every day Im going to this school I hate it more and more. I hate those teachers who only think about theirselves...they dont see u as a person, they just see u as a student whos too stupid anyway, no matter what they want from u...and the more I am there the more I start to feel like this too.
Im not even able to say something in german because I just didnt understood what my teacher wanted me to say..I have no idea, I cant concentrate on all this stuff, Im not interested, Im scared and I HATE it!
If I could I would immediatley leave this school..I cant wait to get away from there..I just cant wait..every day more is a nightmare, every day more seems so wasted...every hour Im there I hate it more and more..Im hardly forcing myself to stay there and not to skip my lessons to do something that seems to be a thousand times more sensible.
I just wanna leave, nothing else..I love the people around me, I love hangin around with them, share some time with them..I love this life, more than ever..but I hate this school..I hate it so..
Im amazed about how God works in me, eventhough I feel like a dumb asshole everytime I have to waste my time in school..Im sure that God will come more and more into my life when I learn to trust him more and more..And I really want to trust him and I do..but not in every part of my life..and thats what I have to learn..Ill need to trust him EVERYWHERE..even in school, which is the hardest part. But I wanna go on..go on trust in him, go on loving him with all my heart..and Im sure Im gonna get to england, I dont know how, I dont know when but I WILL get there.
Please Jesus, show me your love, every and every day becos I cant get through this without u..Im waiting for u to fill my life more and more..and Im waiting to see more miracles. I wanna see ur almighty hand working in my life. I NEED some miracles becos this way it cant go on..Im so tired..Tired of all the stuff around me. tired of this school, of all the expectations that people have on me. I need a sense in my life, and the only sense I find is YOU lord..nothing else..I need u!!