friendship..

where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
somewhere along in the bitterness...

how do the people say?
friends are comin and friends are goin..of course there are some "friends" you lose in your life and its not the first time its happenin to me..
but..its someone I never thought this friendship will end..we knew each other for years, we actually were friends my whole life..
and now she has to concentrate on herself and only wants to have the memories?? gosh how stupid is this???
cant believe it..

actually Im starting to ask myself how the next 5 months will be..
kaddi will leave and actually I dont know anyone here with whom I could do all those things we did the last year..
seems like all my friends are fadin away somehow..the one does not want to know me anymore, the second only sees her boyfriend and has no time for me anyway..
of course there are people I love and who care about me but its just not the same..
with whom should I make music?? it perfectly fits to play music with kaddi..with whom should I drive to Tamm? to the Jesus Treff in Stuttgart? to Goeppingen? with whom should I do stupid fun photoshootings? with whom should I laugh??
with whom should I talk for hours, who would listen to me when I talk about one topic every and every day again? with whom should I dream? with whom should I go to the streets to make music? or with whom sould I go to the streets to pray for people? who will watch walt disney films with me? who would drive to the Ikea with me spontaneously?
whos there to take me in his arms when Im sad?
noone could but her!!
Im gonna miss you...but nevertheless Im sure u r gonna have a good time over there and maybe Im gonna have a good time too..I know its the right way for u to go and I know it wont be that long becos ur only 5 months away and Im gonna visit you..
I know its all not that bad but nevertheless sometimes its hard to think about...