Ewigkeit!!

Ich will Ewigkeit in meinem Herzen spuern, Ewigkeit!
Ich will Ewigkeit in meinem Innern spuern, Ewigkeit in dir!

Ueberschreite die Grenzen meines kleinen Verstandes,
ich will nah bei dir bleiben, reiche dir jetzt meine hand.
Komm und zieh mich aus dem was mich gefangen haelt,
komm und loese mir die Ketten einer todgeweihten Welt.
Ich will in der Wahrheit leben, will das lieben was du gibst,
will ewigkeit!!


thats the song thats running through my mind all day..its so awesome. Its reli what I want God to do. I reli wanna live in the truth and I want God to make me free of all those things that enchain me.

Today was a strange day..at the one hand it was horrible, becos I sat in school and needed to write a business test...I didnt know anything. Before the test I just thought about runnin away and tryin one last time to learn as much as I can just to get those fckn 5 points..but I already made my decision to leave this school, and so I sat there, waitin till my teacher came with this test and it was such a horrible feeling..never ever wanna do something like that again..
after half an hour there was nothing left that I could write down becos I just didnt know anything..so I gave up and left school...actually forever becos friday will be my last day in this school forever!! somehow it hurts just to know that u didnt won that fight but..I know that God has bigger plans for me and Im sure my lifes gonna be alright!! and Im glad to finally leave this place becos I RELI RELI HATE it!!
at the other hand the day was wonderful becos I went for a walk at the sunset and the sky looked so beautiful and I thought about what Tobi said yesterday when he preached...that the sky at the sunset changes every minute and that this is just like our relationship to God is...
and I walked there and I was so amazed becos the picture I saw was breathtaking!!
everything around me was white...snow all around me..and then the sky was full of red, orange, yellow and rose but also grey and dark blue..and the grey clouds just passed by and I just stopped, stood there stunning with eyes wide open and was like "oh my god you are such a wonderful creator!!!" and when I stood there i listened to a song of samuel harfst which says "Ist es nicht wunderbar an diesem Tag zu sein? Es ist ein Privileg, erachte es nicht als klein.....denn der Herr tut heute noch Wunder, Stunde um Stunde, Tag fuer Tag..."
And I just felt like I would experience a miracle at this moment becos I was allowed to see this beautiful sky..I never felt like this before..and I had such a good prayer time and felt so good afterwards..God is such a peace giver, but he also gives strength!! WOOOW!!
And this song also reminds me evrytime I listen to it that it is such a big gift to be in this world and to be alive!!
And it reli makes me happy that God is my father and that theres nothing that could seperate me from his love. its so good to be his beloved child and I just cant tell how I feel at the moment...Im so amazed and I LOVE my GOD!!