think of u..

but I think of you
whenever life gets me down
I think of you
whenever you´re not around
you rest your bones
somewhere far from my own

sometimes life is so funny..reli!!
Im hardly trying to figure out which way to go but somehow Im wasting my time..
wasting my time with watching stupid series, lookin at pictures I shudnt look on, listening to music that keeps me dreamin..
its so wrong...
but what can I do?? I culd behave completely foolish, I could tell the world so that everyone wuld hear what i gotta say..I culd just be honest...
but u know what? thats pretty embarassing sometimes...yeah reeeeli!!
so I just stay calm. eventhough I hate stayin calm, waitin, doing nothing...
instead of talkin Im writin stupid letters that noone will ever read and noone wuld ever understand.
thats sometimes the way life goes...funny isnt it?? yeah I also do not understand it..

yesterday Ive been to a worship evening and it was sooo good! I just felt gods love and it was like he took all the weight from my heart and made it as light as it hasnt been for weeks..
and God showed me how I stood on a mountain somewhere in israel..it was just like he said "hey dont care..u ll get there someday!!"...how wonderful my God is!!
afterwards weve been to a birthday in the hemmingways and its always nice meeting people and talk a bit about life and stuff :)
Im just waiting what comes next!