decisions

seems like today has been the decision-day....And I really hope that I made decisions I can keep..
today in the service while we did the worship I heard God talkin to me..
I didnt like what he said at all..but I know hes right!
he said "Lizzy...as long as you cant let yourself fall and give your heart fully to me when u worship me, you shouldnt lead or do the worship in ANY service.."
I did that quite a lot the last time..since the summer holidays I sang or played in every domino service..I played at the beat and I played in my youth-group...and the more I became the leader, the more I realized I didnt do it with all my heart..
I almost couldnt come down...thats pretty hard...so I decided to be obedient. I wont do worship in service in front of the crowd...only between all the people..becos I wanna come back to the heart of worship..where I dont care where I stand, how I look like or if my singing is perfect.
I wanna give my heart completely to God when I worship him. And I dont wanna say that I didnt gave my heart the last few weeks when I did worship..but I didnt gave it completely..
I wanna be honest...honest to God, honest to myself and honest to my community..so it will be the right way..
I also realized that there are many things that hold me back. Hold me back to reli GO the way God has for me.
So I wanna get rid of a few things...for example safety..the longing to have a partner (God knows what hes doing)...lack of trust (Im just too scared sometimes)...and I guess there are lots of more things...I dont even wanna give a tiny part of myself to the devil...becos hes manupulating...And I also know that the devil only hassomething tpo manipulate when I give him something..thats the point. so I dont wanna give him any part of me becos I BELONG TO JESUS!!!
and theres one sentence david pierce said that evening: Jesus is SO powerful!!!!
Against Jesus the devil is only a TINY mouse that cant do ANYTHING!!
so Im safe...so I dont have to fear anything or have to worry about anything..IM SAFE!