Gods teaching me

its so good to know and also to feel that God has everything in his hands!!
lots of stuff is happening in my life atm..for example when I walked to dettingen to the "insel-godi" at sunday I just talked with god for a while..and it just felt like I could say from my heart that if he wants me to stay alone all life I would do it for him. so I told him.
and it wasnt like its always been that I felt like "mmmh...I dont wanna be alone..." afterwards..it was good. easily good.
the worship in the service was pretty cool. at the beginning I didnt reli came to God..something held me back..I dont know..but as time went by I was reli ready to stand up and to worship the lord..and it reli felt like I would stand at his throne and it felt like he was smiling..
there was a time when everybody could sind out what was on his heart..its reli not my kind of behaviour that I just sing and sind what I feel and what I want to tell God. But I just did..I sang what was on my heart..no matter what the ppl thought or how it sounded..and thats the point I wanna reach when I do worship..and I know it will take some time to get to that point..but Im gonna take the time becos Jesus gives me some time to get better.
it was soo good!!
Yesterday I had a long and exhausting day..had school until 5 pm and then had to go to the theatre at 6.30pm and came back home at 12pm..between school and theatre I took a lil time out to have at least a short time with god..I would have loved to have some more but unfortunetely it wasnt possible..but even in this 30 minutes God spoke to me..I listened to some music and there was a song where the lyrics are "Im made to live, Im made to love, Im made to know you!"
And it was just like God told me with this: No longer care about relationships..YOU ARE MADE TO LOVE! but its in my hands and in my time WHEN u will love someone again..
and he gave me the picture of an eagle that flew higher and higher..kaddi had a pic of an eagle in summer for me too..I dont exactly know what it means but it felt a bit like God wanted to show me that this picture belongs to a prophecy I got in summer too where someone said "someone is here who just ended up a relationship..it was very hard and it still is and you are hurt..but it will be better in time and God will give you new strength and new love and you´re gonna be perfectly prepared for a new relationship"...the more I think about it the more I KNOW that it was for me..and as it seems this picture belongs to that prophecy..
Dont know exactly what it means..but Im excited to find out!!
Im so thankful that God does such amazing things in my life..hes teaching me..every and every day!! could I have a better teacher? NO!!