I will seek You Lord
While I am in my youth.
I will serve You Lord,
And I'll proclaim Your truth.
For You've searched and found me
While I was far away.
And in my troubled times
You've always kept me safe.
The Lord is my Light
and my Salvation
Whom Shall I Fear?
Whom Shall I Fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life
Whom Shall I Fear?
Whom Shall I Fear?
yeah, the Lord is my saviour, the lord is my light and my salvation!
sometimes I reli ask myself what I fear in this world??
theres nothing that could bring me down becos I have Jesus..and I wont fall deeper than into his loving hand! Im so safe in his arms...Im so safe no matter what comes my way.
Im so thankful for this unconditional love he has for me!! Im full of joy becos of my Lord. Im full of joy becos of his love and mercy, because hes almighty, becos I conquered the death, he conquered the devil. Hes holy, hes glorious, lets give him praise and honor!!
Freitag, 31. Oktober 2008
Donnerstag, 30. Oktober 2008
someone like...you?
I would love to share my life with someone..
someone who loves me and someone I love with all my heart.
Id love to go out to the streets with someone to tell the world that jesus lives and to pray for the sick and the hopeless.
Id love to have someone I could go to a worship-night with, and to know that he enjoys the same ways as I do.
Id love to have someone I can walk over fields and meadows with..someone who loves to have a walk, just like I do.
Id love to have someone I could just hang around with in my room, having good conversations, fun or maybe a good soaking time..
I would love to have someone with whom I could sit by the fireside and with whom I could drink some hot chocolate when its cold, snowing and freezing outside..
Id love to have someone with whom I could watch the lion king or some other old films that are so much better than all the new stuff thats out now..
Id just love to have someone to share life, thoughts, desires and love!
Of course I can do all this stuff alone or with friends..it can also be good...but its something reli different!
life isnt easier when u have a partner..but its so good not to be alone..
someone who loves me and someone I love with all my heart.
Id love to go out to the streets with someone to tell the world that jesus lives and to pray for the sick and the hopeless.
Id love to have someone I could go to a worship-night with, and to know that he enjoys the same ways as I do.
Id love to have someone I can walk over fields and meadows with..someone who loves to have a walk, just like I do.
Id love to have someone I could just hang around with in my room, having good conversations, fun or maybe a good soaking time..
I would love to have someone with whom I could sit by the fireside and with whom I could drink some hot chocolate when its cold, snowing and freezing outside..
Id love to have someone with whom I could watch the lion king or some other old films that are so much better than all the new stuff thats out now..
Id just love to have someone to share life, thoughts, desires and love!
Of course I can do all this stuff alone or with friends..it can also be good...but its something reli different!
life isnt easier when u have a partner..but its so good not to be alone..
trust and ppl
its just so typical..I guess u reli didnt change at all..
I thought I could trust u, and that ur not the same u were before..but hey..she?? she of all ppl?? I reli thought u would have more taste...whatever..its ur life!!
Its just one more evidence that I shouldnt trust ppl that much...or that I shouldnt turn away from my requirements..becos Jesus made me the way I am for a reason..and he filled my heart with desires for a reason..I reli should be more careful with my myself..
Im a princess of God and being lways in the 2nd row isnt enough for me. I deserve it to be treated as someone precious. I deserve it to be fully loved and not just a bit.
And yeah, Im gonna smile becos thats also something I deserve to!!
One more time I figured out that GOD is the ONLY one I can fully trust..that hes the only one who understands my desires, my thoughts(even if I dont understand them) and my life.
I reli dont know what Im searching for in this life...Im searching for more..but what do I want more?? I have Jesus..and I have a hand ful of REAL friends I can fully trust. And I have one girl I love more than anyone else in this world..becos I can tell her whatever I want and shes listening, shes praying for me and she understands, even if its foolish.
And thats all I need..what do I want more??
theres only one more thing I firgured out yesterday: I need a man whos watching The lion king with me ;) and who loves it the way I do! what an awesome film!!! <3
I thought I could trust u, and that ur not the same u were before..but hey..she?? she of all ppl?? I reli thought u would have more taste...whatever..its ur life!!
Its just one more evidence that I shouldnt trust ppl that much...or that I shouldnt turn away from my requirements..becos Jesus made me the way I am for a reason..and he filled my heart with desires for a reason..I reli should be more careful with my myself..
Im a princess of God and being lways in the 2nd row isnt enough for me. I deserve it to be treated as someone precious. I deserve it to be fully loved and not just a bit.
And yeah, Im gonna smile becos thats also something I deserve to!!
One more time I figured out that GOD is the ONLY one I can fully trust..that hes the only one who understands my desires, my thoughts(even if I dont understand them) and my life.
I reli dont know what Im searching for in this life...Im searching for more..but what do I want more?? I have Jesus..and I have a hand ful of REAL friends I can fully trust. And I have one girl I love more than anyone else in this world..becos I can tell her whatever I want and shes listening, shes praying for me and she understands, even if its foolish.
And thats all I need..what do I want more??
theres only one more thing I firgured out yesterday: I need a man whos watching The lion king with me ;) and who loves it the way I do! what an awesome film!!! <3
Dienstag, 28. Oktober 2008
precious people..
I had such an amazing time today..
met Dani, Chrissie and Kaddi in stuttgart, we went to starbucks and walked through the town, ate hamburgers and had an awesome time!!
slowly I get to the point where I realize which things Im gonna miss when I will be away.
its not my so called home..its not the daily grind..but its the people I know and love.
Its the "meetings" in stuttgart, goeppingen, what do I know where..its the hangin around together in starbucks or somewhere else..its some services where I meet ppl I dont meet that often..Its easily the time I spend with people who have a wonderful heart, who think in a way that I do, who are fun to hang around with and ppl with whom I can talk about god without being worried what they could think about the stuff I say..and some new friendships I made through the summer..Im gonna miss all those ppl..
but for sure Im gonna find some great ppl in england too..they will have a similar heart...becos we are gonna be at a bible school..and noone who isnt "burning for god" would go to such a school
oh yeah I just dont know how everything is gonna work out...and its just hard not to know what will come..becis I reli have NO IDEA about the future...:/
but god will make it alright..I still believe this even if I dont sound like that...sometimes its hard and there are some days where Im not that sure..but all in all I just KNOW that he will!!
met Dani, Chrissie and Kaddi in stuttgart, we went to starbucks and walked through the town, ate hamburgers and had an awesome time!!
slowly I get to the point where I realize which things Im gonna miss when I will be away.
its not my so called home..its not the daily grind..but its the people I know and love.
Its the "meetings" in stuttgart, goeppingen, what do I know where..its the hangin around together in starbucks or somewhere else..its some services where I meet ppl I dont meet that often..Its easily the time I spend with people who have a wonderful heart, who think in a way that I do, who are fun to hang around with and ppl with whom I can talk about god without being worried what they could think about the stuff I say..and some new friendships I made through the summer..Im gonna miss all those ppl..
but for sure Im gonna find some great ppl in england too..they will have a similar heart...becos we are gonna be at a bible school..and noone who isnt "burning for god" would go to such a school
oh yeah I just dont know how everything is gonna work out...and its just hard not to know what will come..becis I reli have NO IDEA about the future...:/
but god will make it alright..I still believe this even if I dont sound like that...sometimes its hard and there are some days where Im not that sure..but all in all I just KNOW that he will!!
Montag, 27. Oktober 2008
confusing...
the weekend was just awesome..when we arrived the party started and we danced a long time..and also had some nice conversations. After the dancing part we played some games and had just fun..
I cant help but I had such a good time up on the nordalb becos somehow its a place my heart loves..I have so many memories of this place, maybe not just good memories, also bad ones, but there are LOADS of good memories, and they weight much more than the bad stuff...
everytime I arrive there I feel like God wants to do something IN me..in my heart..and everytime Im there he really does something..its not always easy..most of the time the hard stuff happens there..
I enjoyed the weekend becos of all the precious ppl around me..becos of all the good conversations, the worship and prayer times, the chill out & fun times and the teachings..
but there were also some thought that are not easy to carry at all..
I know Im still hurt in so many parts of my heart..and thats okay..becos there were loads of things in my life that ppl did that werent okay. they hurt me, even if they didnt wanted to..they just did and there are some wounds that are not healed at all..but thats okay.
the thing that is much more irritating and confusing is all the stuff Im thinkin about atm...
its about england..Im yearning to go there and I still think that if I could I would immediatley pack my bags and fly there...and it wouldnt even be hard for the first time...but..When I go there Im gonna be there for 10 MONTHS...u know how long this is?? 10 months far far far away from here..maybe not far away from the place I call home..but far away from ppl I call "home"..from their hearts, where I sometimes find a missing piece of peace..
I know there will be awesome ppl over there...but I was always scared about being alone..thats one reason why I always wanted to go in a foreign country alone..
I actually dont even know whats my problem atm...I just know that I feel a bit lost here and that I dont really know what I should do now..Im hangin around here, my familys there, but they are not really "there"..theyre watching tv..and Im sitting in my room trying to find something that I could do but theres nothing that seems to make sense at all..I wanted to read a book (well to be honest not just one but about 3 or 4^^)...but I just dont feel like readin at the mom..
maybe its just becos Ive been surrounded of some awesome ppl the last few days..now I sit at home alone again..and I know that I should write an essay and that I should learn some business stuff..yeah maybe its the daily grind Im scared about.. jesus let me just fly away...
I cant help but I had such a good time up on the nordalb becos somehow its a place my heart loves..I have so many memories of this place, maybe not just good memories, also bad ones, but there are LOADS of good memories, and they weight much more than the bad stuff...
everytime I arrive there I feel like God wants to do something IN me..in my heart..and everytime Im there he really does something..its not always easy..most of the time the hard stuff happens there..
I enjoyed the weekend becos of all the precious ppl around me..becos of all the good conversations, the worship and prayer times, the chill out & fun times and the teachings..
but there were also some thought that are not easy to carry at all..
I know Im still hurt in so many parts of my heart..and thats okay..becos there were loads of things in my life that ppl did that werent okay. they hurt me, even if they didnt wanted to..they just did and there are some wounds that are not healed at all..but thats okay.
the thing that is much more irritating and confusing is all the stuff Im thinkin about atm...
its about england..Im yearning to go there and I still think that if I could I would immediatley pack my bags and fly there...and it wouldnt even be hard for the first time...but..When I go there Im gonna be there for 10 MONTHS...u know how long this is?? 10 months far far far away from here..maybe not far away from the place I call home..but far away from ppl I call "home"..from their hearts, where I sometimes find a missing piece of peace..
I know there will be awesome ppl over there...but I was always scared about being alone..thats one reason why I always wanted to go in a foreign country alone..
I actually dont even know whats my problem atm...I just know that I feel a bit lost here and that I dont really know what I should do now..Im hangin around here, my familys there, but they are not really "there"..theyre watching tv..and Im sitting in my room trying to find something that I could do but theres nothing that seems to make sense at all..I wanted to read a book (well to be honest not just one but about 3 or 4^^)...but I just dont feel like readin at the mom..
maybe its just becos Ive been surrounded of some awesome ppl the last few days..now I sit at home alone again..and I know that I should write an essay and that I should learn some business stuff..yeah maybe its the daily grind Im scared about.. jesus let me just fly away...
Freitag, 24. Oktober 2008
YOU are the one and only!! <3
Weißt du eigentlich was du bist für mich?
Alles andre als normal
und jederzeit loyal, royal
Du bist mein Fundament
Keine die mich so gut kennt,
keine die mich sieht wie du.
Old Shatterhand ich Winnetou
Immer werden wir so bleiben
Jung und frei und schön, wir beide.
Stehen auf der guten Seite
Jahr für Jahr.
Immer werden wir so bleiben,
lachen über schlechte Zeiten.
Deine Schmerzen sind auch meine.
Jahr für Jahr.
Weißt du eigentlich
was du tust für mich?
Wenn du meine Lasten trägst,
und dich mit meinen Feinden schlägst?
Ich vertrau dir mehr als mir,
und ich liebe dich dafür.
dass du bist wie du isst,
dass du niemals vergisst
was das wichtige ist.
Wir beide
Immer werden wir so bleiben.
Jung und frei und schön, wir beide
stehen auf der guten Seite.
Jahr für Jahr.
Immer werden wir so bleiben,
lachen über schlechte Zeiten.
Deine schmerzen sind auch meine.
Jahr für Jahr.
Jahr für Jahr.
we played a hundred songs, we prayed, we sang, we flew to england, we slept in a tent, we walked through the rain we were lying in the sun, we sat for hours on a place and watched people walking through the streets, we prayed for people, we talked for hours, good stuff, crazy stuff, sad stuff..and we ALWAYS found a way together...we always kept the friendship..and I SURE well do it in the future too..
nothings gonna stop us, noone could hold us back..were gonna conquer the world, were gonna LIVE life like noone could imagine..our friendship will NEVER die!!
its just...today grundkurs starts again...3 years ago at OUR grundkurs we talked the first time..our story began pretty funny..but it moved on and its the most serious friendship I ever had...YOU ARE THE BEST ONE OF THE BEST ONES!!
I love u!!
now look, where we are
you're in my heart now
and there's no escaping it for you
cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last
cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last
cause you are the sun in my universe
consider the best when we felt the worst
and most of all, most of all
most of all, most of all,
most of all. most of all
it's built to last
Mittwoch, 22. Oktober 2008
He IS in control
sometimes Im such a stressful person..
I always wanna make everything on my own, I always wanna plan everything, I wanna know things immediatley...I want solutions for problems right now...
and there is one VERY important thing I forget when I am like that: GOD has everything in his hand.
He has a plan that is much bigger than what I expect and what I plan..its perfect and better than any plan I make could be..he LOVES me and he would never do anything thats not good for me.
IM GONNA FIND MY WAY...why shouldnt I??
the bible says in Mat. 6, 25-34:
25 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
so why do I always try to find answers and solutions for any problems..I guess I should really CHILL now and let it come like it comes..God is gonna do it alright..I wont make it any way...
So now Im gonna share some freetime, watchin some TV with my daddy just to chill out a bit..
HES GOT EVERYTHING IN HIS HAND..so why should I go on makin myself crazy??
Hes gonna bring me to the job I should do, hes gonna bring me to the bible school in bristol if he wants me there, he´ll bring me to an university someday if he wants me to study...
so everythings gonna be alright...THANKS FOR YOUR MERCY JESUS!!
I always wanna make everything on my own, I always wanna plan everything, I wanna know things immediatley...I want solutions for problems right now...
and there is one VERY important thing I forget when I am like that: GOD has everything in his hand.
He has a plan that is much bigger than what I expect and what I plan..its perfect and better than any plan I make could be..he LOVES me and he would never do anything thats not good for me.
IM GONNA FIND MY WAY...why shouldnt I??
the bible says in Mat. 6, 25-34:
25 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
so why do I always try to find answers and solutions for any problems..I guess I should really CHILL now and let it come like it comes..God is gonna do it alright..I wont make it any way...
So now Im gonna share some freetime, watchin some TV with my daddy just to chill out a bit..
HES GOT EVERYTHING IN HIS HAND..so why should I go on makin myself crazy??
Hes gonna bring me to the job I should do, hes gonna bring me to the bible school in bristol if he wants me there, he´ll bring me to an university someday if he wants me to study...
so everythings gonna be alright...THANKS FOR YOUR MERCY JESUS!!
Dienstag, 21. Oktober 2008
beautiful life
I had such a good time while I was out for a walk today..
I danced.
I laughed.
I jumped around.
I sang.
I was full of joy.
I prayed.
I rested in my fathers love.
I watched the clouds passing by.
I stared into the blue sky.
I enjoyed to lie in the grass.
I was happy.
I thought about england.
I thought about that awesome summer that lies behind me..
I thought about the coming year.
I thought about the time I will spend in england next year.
I thought about a to do list with all the things I need to do this year, especially with Kaddi, before shes leaving <3
I loved and still love God ;)
I ate an apple *yummie*
I fell to the ground because Im too stupid to walk :D
I felt alive!
what an amazing life!
yesterday Ive been for a walk too..but with an old friend of mine (we know each other since we are 3)..we hadnt got lots do do with each other for a few years, but now we sometimes meet and have a good time..thats awesome.
and yesterday we collected some nuts, flowers and chestnuts..we felt like when we were young, becos we did it very often when we were kids...
I thank God for every of this wonderful days..and I thank God for the sun thats shining!! I LOVE it!!
I danced.
I laughed.
I jumped around.
I sang.
I was full of joy.
I prayed.
I rested in my fathers love.
I watched the clouds passing by.
I stared into the blue sky.
I enjoyed to lie in the grass.
I was happy.
I thought about england.
I thought about that awesome summer that lies behind me..
I thought about the coming year.
I thought about the time I will spend in england next year.
I thought about a to do list with all the things I need to do this year, especially with Kaddi, before shes leaving <3
I loved and still love God ;)
I ate an apple *yummie*
I fell to the ground because Im too stupid to walk :D
I felt alive!
what an amazing life!
yesterday Ive been for a walk too..but with an old friend of mine (we know each other since we are 3)..we hadnt got lots do do with each other for a few years, but now we sometimes meet and have a good time..thats awesome.
and yesterday we collected some nuts, flowers and chestnuts..we felt like when we were young, becos we did it very often when we were kids...
I thank God for every of this wonderful days..and I thank God for the sun thats shining!! I LOVE it!!
Montag, 20. Oktober 2008
save you..
take a breath,
I’ll pull myself together.
Just another step until I reach the door
you’ll never know the way,
it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
and there’s so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
if it takes you forever, I want you to know
when I hear your voice,
it’s drowning into whispers
you're just skin and bones
there’s nothing left to take
and no matter what I do
I can’t make you feel better
if only I could find the answer
to help me understand
that if you fall, stumble down,
I’ll pick you up off the ground.
If you lose faith in you,
I’ll give you strength to pull through.
Tell me you won’t give up,
cause I’ll be waiting here if you fall
you know I’ll be there for you
if only I could find the answer,
to take it all away
(Simple Plan - Save you)
Im so sorry for u and I know I cant really help u..
It hurts my soul to see u unhappy and Im trying to find a way to help u and to make u feel good..at least for a day...but it feels like there would be NOTHING I could do for u and thats what makes me sad!
I just wanna show u how much u mean to me and how much I like u and that u are someone Ill NEVER ever let down (Im trying to), becos u are one of those people Ive never really been disappointed of, even if I dont even know why..
u are so wonderful and precious...why cant u just see it???
I’ll pull myself together.
Just another step until I reach the door
you’ll never know the way,
it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
and there’s so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
if it takes you forever, I want you to know
when I hear your voice,
it’s drowning into whispers
you're just skin and bones
there’s nothing left to take
and no matter what I do
I can’t make you feel better
if only I could find the answer
to help me understand
that if you fall, stumble down,
I’ll pick you up off the ground.
If you lose faith in you,
I’ll give you strength to pull through.
Tell me you won’t give up,
cause I’ll be waiting here if you fall
you know I’ll be there for you
if only I could find the answer,
to take it all away
(Simple Plan - Save you)
Im so sorry for u and I know I cant really help u..
It hurts my soul to see u unhappy and Im trying to find a way to help u and to make u feel good..at least for a day...but it feels like there would be NOTHING I could do for u and thats what makes me sad!
I just wanna show u how much u mean to me and how much I like u and that u are someone Ill NEVER ever let down (Im trying to), becos u are one of those people Ive never really been disappointed of, even if I dont even know why..
u are so wonderful and precious...why cant u just see it???
Sonntag, 19. Oktober 2008
better in time
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn`t know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deversed it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn´t turn on the TV,
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna let hurt my feelings
But thats the path I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since theres no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
Yes I do
It'll all get better in time
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(Leona Lewis - Better in time)
<3
I didn`t know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deversed it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn´t turn on the TV,
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna let hurt my feelings
But thats the path I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since theres no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
Yes I do
It'll all get better in time
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(Leona Lewis - Better in time)
<3
people in this world
its so amazing..
god shows me how wonderful and interesting people are..everyone in his own way, but also everyone impressing..
its important to kick yourself in the ass so that u speak to people where u thought it wouldnt be worth it - and it IS worth it!! because u learn to see people in a different way...u figure out that they have positive sides that u never saw becos u didnt talked to them at all..
its amazing how many different people we have in this world..everyone individual. everyone wonderful in his own way.
its so important to see the people through gods eyes..becos in his eyes everyone is beautiful, everyone is loved, everyone is someone special..!
and Im trying more and more to see people through gods eyes..becos I think its easier to love them this way..
god shows me how wonderful and interesting people are..everyone in his own way, but also everyone impressing..
its important to kick yourself in the ass so that u speak to people where u thought it wouldnt be worth it - and it IS worth it!! because u learn to see people in a different way...u figure out that they have positive sides that u never saw becos u didnt talked to them at all..
its amazing how many different people we have in this world..everyone individual. everyone wonderful in his own way.
its so important to see the people through gods eyes..becos in his eyes everyone is beautiful, everyone is loved, everyone is someone special..!
and Im trying more and more to see people through gods eyes..becos I think its easier to love them this way..
Samstag, 18. Oktober 2008
home
fuck off staying friends? alright, so if you do I also will..
who am I to run after you?
sometimes I ask myself where my home is..I searched for places which I could call home, maybe I found some which I could call home for at least a while..but I never found a place that I could REALLY call home...which my heart could call home..till I found Jesus..
All my life Ive been living here
trying to make this place my place
but it never felt like it was home
Ive travelled through western-USA
had a good time drivin around there
but it didnt felt like home
Ive been to lots of places
Ive seen a thousand faces
but the only thing I found
was that there was no place to call home
I visited places in Asia
Ive seen a mosque in turkey
but my heart couldnt find its place
Ive been to england in summer
Ive seen cathedrales and towers
I think it felt like home, at least a bit
Ive been to lots of places
Ive seen a million faces
but the only thing I found was:
theres only one place to call home
its your heart
in your heart I find love, I find grace, I find peace
in your heart I found home!
who am I to run after you?
sometimes I ask myself where my home is..I searched for places which I could call home, maybe I found some which I could call home for at least a while..but I never found a place that I could REALLY call home...which my heart could call home..till I found Jesus..
All my life Ive been living here
trying to make this place my place
but it never felt like it was home
Ive travelled through western-USA
had a good time drivin around there
but it didnt felt like home
Ive been to lots of places
Ive seen a thousand faces
but the only thing I found
was that there was no place to call home
I visited places in Asia
Ive seen a mosque in turkey
but my heart couldnt find its place
Ive been to england in summer
Ive seen cathedrales and towers
I think it felt like home, at least a bit
Ive been to lots of places
Ive seen a million faces
but the only thing I found was:
theres only one place to call home
its your heart
in your heart I find love, I find grace, I find peace
in your heart I found home!
Freitag, 17. Oktober 2008
purity2
one more time today its about purity.
Im cleanin my room at the moment..and one more time I realize how much junk I own..
some things that are at least 5 years old and that I will NEVER ever use again...si I have to learn just to throw it away..and thats pretty hard for me..Im really not someone who throws away something he doesnt need anymore (would be much easier if I would be, becos then my room would be filled with the half of all the stuff I own).
but isnt it the same with our hearts? there are things/moments/persons/times that are long gone..but can we let it go and "throw it away"?? often we cant..so theres lots of rubbish within our hearts that we need to throw away, only when we do that we get free...
oh folks thats so complicated and so hard..
the more I get pure inside I want to be pure outside and also I want my room to be clean (which sometimes seems to be the hardest part to get pure ;)..the more I clean up the more old stuff comes out of everycorner of my room (and also of every corner of my heart).
I started at the beginning of the year with cleaning up and with getting pure (well, I just didnt called it "pure")..but its such a long process and Im not approximately ready...its such a long walk..but in the meantime Im at the point where I at least REALLY wanna get pure..Id dint always wanted to be it..
so if anyones interested to go this way too, just join me..its always easier to be not alone - for everyone!
Im cleanin my room at the moment..and one more time I realize how much junk I own..
some things that are at least 5 years old and that I will NEVER ever use again...si I have to learn just to throw it away..and thats pretty hard for me..Im really not someone who throws away something he doesnt need anymore (would be much easier if I would be, becos then my room would be filled with the half of all the stuff I own).
but isnt it the same with our hearts? there are things/moments/persons/times that are long gone..but can we let it go and "throw it away"?? often we cant..so theres lots of rubbish within our hearts that we need to throw away, only when we do that we get free...
oh folks thats so complicated and so hard..
the more I get pure inside I want to be pure outside and also I want my room to be clean (which sometimes seems to be the hardest part to get pure ;)..the more I clean up the more old stuff comes out of everycorner of my room (and also of every corner of my heart).
I started at the beginning of the year with cleaning up and with getting pure (well, I just didnt called it "pure")..but its such a long process and Im not approximately ready...its such a long walk..but in the meantime Im at the point where I at least REALLY wanna get pure..Id dint always wanted to be it..
so if anyones interested to go this way too, just join me..its always easier to be not alone - for everyone!
Donnerstag, 16. Oktober 2008
dying..and live again!
People moving all the time
Inside a perfectly straight line
Don't you wanna curve away?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day
Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time
Could be blue,
could be grey
without you I’m just miles away
could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time
u know...there must be a way without u..there must be a life without u..it seems unreal to let u go..it hurts to let u go..it still does..but the more I get away from u the more I get sure about that its the right thing..and I get more sure everyday that it will be the right way to go to england..I dont know whats going to happen..but I know that I dont always need to know everything becos Gods just bigger..stronger..better! better than anything that I expect or imagine..
u know, ur the one who want to tell me that I would become obsessed with the thought to get to england, with the thought of GOD in my life..
u know, thats what shows me that its just right..I guess ull never ever understand how fuckin much I loved u..ull never see how much you meant to me and u still do..but I do not wanna make promises I cant keep..Im sorry to be honest and I hate it but I dont wanna be a liar..
I hope youll get happy someday..I hope youre gonna find someone who loves u the way that u deserve it..I just feel like I couldnt give u what u want, what u need and what u deserve..it cant be me..
Im gonna get away and Im gonna come back..but I wanna die..becos all the old stuff inside of me has to die..I wanna be a new person..becos I cant bear it to have things within me that arent pure, that arent the truth..and I have so many lies within me...lies about myself, about the world about the people..it will hurt like hell and maybe even more..but I know Im gonna be new..pure..Im gonna be true..and Im never gonna be like I have been again..never, never, never!
Inside a perfectly straight line
Don't you wanna curve away?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day
Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time
Could be blue,
could be grey
without you I’m just miles away
could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time
u know...there must be a way without u..there must be a life without u..it seems unreal to let u go..it hurts to let u go..it still does..but the more I get away from u the more I get sure about that its the right thing..and I get more sure everyday that it will be the right way to go to england..I dont know whats going to happen..but I know that I dont always need to know everything becos Gods just bigger..stronger..better! better than anything that I expect or imagine..
u know, ur the one who want to tell me that I would become obsessed with the thought to get to england, with the thought of GOD in my life..
u know, thats what shows me that its just right..I guess ull never ever understand how fuckin much I loved u..ull never see how much you meant to me and u still do..but I do not wanna make promises I cant keep..Im sorry to be honest and I hate it but I dont wanna be a liar..
I hope youll get happy someday..I hope youre gonna find someone who loves u the way that u deserve it..I just feel like I couldnt give u what u want, what u need and what u deserve..it cant be me..
Im gonna get away and Im gonna come back..but I wanna die..becos all the old stuff inside of me has to die..I wanna be a new person..becos I cant bear it to have things within me that arent pure, that arent the truth..and I have so many lies within me...lies about myself, about the world about the people..it will hurt like hell and maybe even more..but I know Im gonna be new..pure..Im gonna be true..and Im never gonna be like I have been again..never, never, never!
purity
Im more and more thinking about purity at the moment..
It all started with Dani who cleaned a room in the fitness center where we celebrate our serviceand who talked about purity..he said that the purity outside reflects the purity inside of u...I laughed about it...but the more I think about the more I get close to what he said...
when I look at my room for example..the whole week Im here and there and I just drop everything where I am because I havent got time to tidy up....at the end of the week my room is full of stuff..everywhere is lying anything..I do not take time to clean up so theres no purity..its the same in my heart...when I run from here to there I havent got time to get calm..I cant rest...and the more Im running around the less purity is within me because everything inside of me gets mixed up and I have no clearness inside of me..
people, thats really something important...wen need some purity in our lives!!!
Im trying to get more and more purity in my life..whos going with me??
It all started with Dani who cleaned a room in the fitness center where we celebrate our serviceand who talked about purity..he said that the purity outside reflects the purity inside of u...I laughed about it...but the more I think about the more I get close to what he said...
when I look at my room for example..the whole week Im here and there and I just drop everything where I am because I havent got time to tidy up....at the end of the week my room is full of stuff..everywhere is lying anything..I do not take time to clean up so theres no purity..its the same in my heart...when I run from here to there I havent got time to get calm..I cant rest...and the more Im running around the less purity is within me because everything inside of me gets mixed up and I have no clearness inside of me..
people, thats really something important...wen need some purity in our lives!!!
Im trying to get more and more purity in my life..whos going with me??
Dienstag, 14. Oktober 2008
trust in u...
Im honest: I cant wait to leave this place..ANYWHERE!! but actually Id most love to finally leave to england. every day Im going to this school I hate it more and more. I hate those teachers who only think about theirselves...they dont see u as a person, they just see u as a student whos too stupid anyway, no matter what they want from u...and the more I am there the more I start to feel like this too.
Im not even able to say something in german because I just didnt understood what my teacher wanted me to say..I have no idea, I cant concentrate on all this stuff, Im not interested, Im scared and I HATE it!
If I could I would immediatley leave this school..I cant wait to get away from there..I just cant wait..every day more is a nightmare, every day more seems so wasted...every hour Im there I hate it more and more..Im hardly forcing myself to stay there and not to skip my lessons to do something that seems to be a thousand times more sensible.
I just wanna leave, nothing else..I love the people around me, I love hangin around with them, share some time with them..I love this life, more than ever..but I hate this school..I hate it so..
Im amazed about how God works in me, eventhough I feel like a dumb asshole everytime I have to waste my time in school..Im sure that God will come more and more into my life when I learn to trust him more and more..And I really want to trust him and I do..but not in every part of my life..and thats what I have to learn..Ill need to trust him EVERYWHERE..even in school, which is the hardest part. But I wanna go on..go on trust in him, go on loving him with all my heart..and Im sure Im gonna get to england, I dont know how, I dont know when but I WILL get there.
Please Jesus, show me your love, every and every day becos I cant get through this without u..Im waiting for u to fill my life more and more..and Im waiting to see more miracles. I wanna see ur almighty hand working in my life. I NEED some miracles becos this way it cant go on..Im so tired..Tired of all the stuff around me. tired of this school, of all the expectations that people have on me. I need a sense in my life, and the only sense I find is YOU lord..nothing else..I need u!!
Im not even able to say something in german because I just didnt understood what my teacher wanted me to say..I have no idea, I cant concentrate on all this stuff, Im not interested, Im scared and I HATE it!
If I could I would immediatley leave this school..I cant wait to get away from there..I just cant wait..every day more is a nightmare, every day more seems so wasted...every hour Im there I hate it more and more..Im hardly forcing myself to stay there and not to skip my lessons to do something that seems to be a thousand times more sensible.
I just wanna leave, nothing else..I love the people around me, I love hangin around with them, share some time with them..I love this life, more than ever..but I hate this school..I hate it so..
Im amazed about how God works in me, eventhough I feel like a dumb asshole everytime I have to waste my time in school..Im sure that God will come more and more into my life when I learn to trust him more and more..And I really want to trust him and I do..but not in every part of my life..and thats what I have to learn..Ill need to trust him EVERYWHERE..even in school, which is the hardest part. But I wanna go on..go on trust in him, go on loving him with all my heart..and Im sure Im gonna get to england, I dont know how, I dont know when but I WILL get there.
Please Jesus, show me your love, every and every day becos I cant get through this without u..Im waiting for u to fill my life more and more..and Im waiting to see more miracles. I wanna see ur almighty hand working in my life. I NEED some miracles becos this way it cant go on..Im so tired..Tired of all the stuff around me. tired of this school, of all the expectations that people have on me. I need a sense in my life, and the only sense I find is YOU lord..nothing else..I need u!!
Montag, 13. Oktober 2008
Breathing the breath that he gave us to breathe
We have nothing to give
That didn't first come from Your hands
We have nothing to offer You
Which You did not provide
Every good, perfect gift comes from
Your kind and gracious heart
And all we do is give back to You
What always has been Yours
Lord, we're breathing the breath
That You gave us to breath
To worship You, to worship You
And we're singing these songs
With the very same breath
To worship You, to worship You
Who has given to You
That it should be paid back to him?
Who has given to You
As if You needed anything?
From You, and to You, and through You
Come all things, O Lord
And all we do is give back to You
What always has been Yours
We are breathing the breath
That You gave us to breath
(Matt Redman - Breathing the breath)
theres nothing that I could give God that comes from myself. but thats not a problem..becos I do not even have the chance..becos god made me..he created me..so what could I have anything to give to him that comes from myself?
its just like the song says..Im breathing the breath that he gave me to breathe..and with this breath I worship him..thats all I can give...but its enough for him..
and this is one more day where I just cant believe and just cant understand how BIG, how MARVELOUS, how WONDERFUL my god is!!
I cant understand his grace and mercy. hes too amazing!!
its not easy for me to give money, not in this situation..but I learned that its important to be obedient..and I know its worth it!
And I believe that God will give me the money that I need for my trip to england..I know that I havent got much..but I know that theres a lot of time till Ill get away from here..and Im sure God will move his almighty hand to get me where he wants me to..
and so im breathing the breath that he gave me to breathe to worship HIM, and only HIM!
That didn't first come from Your hands
We have nothing to offer You
Which You did not provide
Every good, perfect gift comes from
Your kind and gracious heart
And all we do is give back to You
What always has been Yours
Lord, we're breathing the breath
That You gave us to breath
To worship You, to worship You
And we're singing these songs
With the very same breath
To worship You, to worship You
Who has given to You
That it should be paid back to him?
Who has given to You
As if You needed anything?
From You, and to You, and through You
Come all things, O Lord
And all we do is give back to You
What always has been Yours
We are breathing the breath
That You gave us to breath
(Matt Redman - Breathing the breath)
theres nothing that I could give God that comes from myself. but thats not a problem..becos I do not even have the chance..becos god made me..he created me..so what could I have anything to give to him that comes from myself?
its just like the song says..Im breathing the breath that he gave me to breathe..and with this breath I worship him..thats all I can give...but its enough for him..
and this is one more day where I just cant believe and just cant understand how BIG, how MARVELOUS, how WONDERFUL my god is!!
I cant understand his grace and mercy. hes too amazing!!
its not easy for me to give money, not in this situation..but I learned that its important to be obedient..and I know its worth it!
And I believe that God will give me the money that I need for my trip to england..I know that I havent got much..but I know that theres a lot of time till Ill get away from here..and Im sure God will move his almighty hand to get me where he wants me to..
and so im breathing the breath that he gave me to breathe to worship HIM, and only HIM!
Sonntag, 12. Oktober 2008
who am I called to be?
its not a very good feeling to figure out that youre not really that kind of daughter for your father that he wished u to be.
I know now that Im not. I guess he wished that I wouldnt believe in God so deeply that Id like to go to a bible school. And I also think that hed wish that I wouldnt wanna help people and make it to my job, but would rather like if I would be satisfacted with an office-job where I would earn a lot of money.
And actually I can even understand him. Im sure that its not easy to have children who do not think like u do in any way..
But if theres one thing Im sure about it is that Im not that kind of human whos only interested in earning much money, caring about themself and who hasnt got dreams and wishes for his life.
I know my way wont ever be easy becos I plan lots of things that sometimes seem to be unreachable. And I understand that my dad wants only the best for me so he just wishes that I would have a safe job and a safe life..but I just cant live this way..
Its hard to figure out that u are not who u wished to be and that there are thoughts like "wouldnt it be better not to have any children?" but through all the disappointment I feel about that theres still kind of understanding and I feel sorry...
but what I also know that right now Im exactly who God wants me to be right now and that he meant me the way I am. Its not easy to be me but its good that I am me..
I know now that Im not. I guess he wished that I wouldnt believe in God so deeply that Id like to go to a bible school. And I also think that hed wish that I wouldnt wanna help people and make it to my job, but would rather like if I would be satisfacted with an office-job where I would earn a lot of money.
And actually I can even understand him. Im sure that its not easy to have children who do not think like u do in any way..
But if theres one thing Im sure about it is that Im not that kind of human whos only interested in earning much money, caring about themself and who hasnt got dreams and wishes for his life.
I know my way wont ever be easy becos I plan lots of things that sometimes seem to be unreachable. And I understand that my dad wants only the best for me so he just wishes that I would have a safe job and a safe life..but I just cant live this way..
Its hard to figure out that u are not who u wished to be and that there are thoughts like "wouldnt it be better not to have any children?" but through all the disappointment I feel about that theres still kind of understanding and I feel sorry...
but what I also know that right now Im exactly who God wants me to be right now and that he meant me the way I am. Its not easy to be me but its good that I am me..
Mittwoch, 8. Oktober 2008
God the HEALER!!
so unbelievable..I can only sing praise to the lord!!
Its really funny what he did this evening.
I walked around and I just had a pain in my finger since saturday evening. it especially hurt when I played the guitra...and so I thought I could just pray for the pain to go away. I did it - and the pain was gone! This is crazy!! and I also had pain in my right knee the whole day - and its also away..although I didnt even pray for the knee!!
How AMAZING the lord is...I almost cant blieve it!! ;)
Its really funny what he did this evening.
I walked around and I just had a pain in my finger since saturday evening. it especially hurt when I played the guitra...and so I thought I could just pray for the pain to go away. I did it - and the pain was gone! This is crazy!! and I also had pain in my right knee the whole day - and its also away..although I didnt even pray for the knee!!
How AMAZING the lord is...I almost cant blieve it!! ;)
You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand
You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand
So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You
So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand
So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You
So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
(Hillsongs United - The Stand)
filled up with truth, wisdom and love
I dont have any idea what god is doing in me, with me and with my life at the moment.
But Im really able to relax!! And it feels sooo good!!
We had our "more of god-meeting" yesterday and first we did some worship and later we just prayed for kirchheim, germany, the people around us and for ourselves..I dont know what exactly it was I felt but it just felt like God opened my heart completely so that he could fill it with his truth, wisdom and love.
And it really feels like he did.
I felt so good after this meeting, just becos I knew that God was there. And I also felt so good today...we had SBK today and we just prayed and once more it just felt like God would be right here. do u know how good that feels???
hes just there when I sit in a boring business lesson. Hes here when I clean up my room, when Im listening to music, when I walk around, yeah, even when I sleep he holds his hand over me.
And today Ive been to Starbucks in stuttgart with a friend of mine and we had a pretty good time and it feels good to help people.
And Ive been obedient today...when I saw a man sitting on the corner of the street I just had the feeling I should go to him and ask him if he wants something to eat becos he had a sign which said "please give me money for something to eat"...when I walked past him the first time I "ignored" gods voice but when I walked back the street and he still sat there I went to him and asked him if he would want something to eat (I dont give those people money becos who knows what they do with it). He didnt understand me (or he pretended to..but I didnt believe him becos he didnt seem to be a foreigner) and so I just gave up after a view times. But I also felt that I shouldnt just give him money.
And it was good that I just did what God wanted becos it was simply a good experience for me..a training to be obedient ;)
I feel filled up by God. Even if I didnt do anything special - just becos hes there!
Im gonna go for a walk now becos I love it to walk around in the darkness and to share my thoughts with God.
But Im really able to relax!! And it feels sooo good!!
We had our "more of god-meeting" yesterday and first we did some worship and later we just prayed for kirchheim, germany, the people around us and for ourselves..I dont know what exactly it was I felt but it just felt like God opened my heart completely so that he could fill it with his truth, wisdom and love.
And it really feels like he did.
I felt so good after this meeting, just becos I knew that God was there. And I also felt so good today...we had SBK today and we just prayed and once more it just felt like God would be right here. do u know how good that feels???
hes just there when I sit in a boring business lesson. Hes here when I clean up my room, when Im listening to music, when I walk around, yeah, even when I sleep he holds his hand over me.
And today Ive been to Starbucks in stuttgart with a friend of mine and we had a pretty good time and it feels good to help people.
And Ive been obedient today...when I saw a man sitting on the corner of the street I just had the feeling I should go to him and ask him if he wants something to eat becos he had a sign which said "please give me money for something to eat"...when I walked past him the first time I "ignored" gods voice but when I walked back the street and he still sat there I went to him and asked him if he would want something to eat (I dont give those people money becos who knows what they do with it). He didnt understand me (or he pretended to..but I didnt believe him becos he didnt seem to be a foreigner) and so I just gave up after a view times. But I also felt that I shouldnt just give him money.
And it was good that I just did what God wanted becos it was simply a good experience for me..a training to be obedient ;)
I feel filled up by God. Even if I didnt do anything special - just becos hes there!
Im gonna go for a walk now becos I love it to walk around in the darkness and to share my thoughts with God.
Montag, 6. Oktober 2008
living life happy
yesterday I had a really wonderful day!!
we had a band rehearsal and it was lots of fun becos I never "played" in a band that included more than two guitars and two singers.
Its really amazing what u can make out of songs when u have a bit more than only guitar and voice.
and I also loved doing the worship in DOMINO becos it was very relaxed...we didnt really practice anything..but that was it in the end that made me kind of feeling good.
becos I hadnt got any pressure that it had to sound good.
I just stood there and sang and it felt like I would sing really out from my heart and I saw Jesus smilin about what we did. and so I needed to smile too.
It was a wonderful day with wonderful people and wonderful music. and I was happy.
Today I got back my business examination..dont need to say anything about it...it was so clear that I fail again, just like I always do in this subject...but u know what?? slowly I dont WANNA care about this any longer..becos I have enough from running after every fckn point I could get...thats so stupid...if thats my sense in life I should really really start to change something!
So after school I went to the Juca and it brightened my mood a bit..
And then Kaddi and me went to the Ikea.
and we had lots of fun walking through this big big center and I found a few great things for my room :)
so this day has been saved too through all the wonderful people I can call friends.
give thanks to the Lord, our God and King, his love endures FOREVER!!
lets see what tomorrow brings..Ive got only 6 hours school I guess thats bearable...
we had a band rehearsal and it was lots of fun becos I never "played" in a band that included more than two guitars and two singers.
Its really amazing what u can make out of songs when u have a bit more than only guitar and voice.
and I also loved doing the worship in DOMINO becos it was very relaxed...we didnt really practice anything..but that was it in the end that made me kind of feeling good.
becos I hadnt got any pressure that it had to sound good.
I just stood there and sang and it felt like I would sing really out from my heart and I saw Jesus smilin about what we did. and so I needed to smile too.
It was a wonderful day with wonderful people and wonderful music. and I was happy.
Today I got back my business examination..dont need to say anything about it...it was so clear that I fail again, just like I always do in this subject...but u know what?? slowly I dont WANNA care about this any longer..becos I have enough from running after every fckn point I could get...thats so stupid...if thats my sense in life I should really really start to change something!
So after school I went to the Juca and it brightened my mood a bit..
And then Kaddi and me went to the Ikea.
and we had lots of fun walking through this big big center and I found a few great things for my room :)
so this day has been saved too through all the wonderful people I can call friends.
give thanks to the Lord, our God and King, his love endures FOREVER!!
lets see what tomorrow brings..Ive got only 6 hours school I guess thats bearable...
Sonntag, 5. Oktober 2008
almighty
My heart feels like its within a storm
but you calm it with your words
In you I rest and find my peace
you give me strength and I feel alive
you are almighty,
you are holy
you are the god that sees me through
I walk through the darkness
bus I see a light shine
Jesus its you Im running to
through every fight you will be my guide
you lead me step by step
no matter what comes through my way
you are God and you are always good
you are so holy, so holy
you are holy you are God
I lift your name up, your name up
lift your name up my Lord
youre almighty, so almighty
you are almighty, you are God
I lift your name high, so high
I lift you name high you are God
but you calm it with your words
In you I rest and find my peace
you give me strength and I feel alive
you are almighty,
you are holy
you are the god that sees me through
I walk through the darkness
bus I see a light shine
Jesus its you Im running to
through every fight you will be my guide
you lead me step by step
no matter what comes through my way
you are God and you are always good
you are so holy, so holy
you are holy you are God
I lift your name up, your name up
lift your name up my Lord
youre almighty, so almighty
you are almighty, you are God
I lift your name high, so high
I lift you name high you are God
Samstag, 4. Oktober 2008
missing u..
how should I gon on when Im still in love with u??
cause if one day you wake up
and find that you´re missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be
what if I woke up and found that Im missing u???
what if I absolutely have no clue what to do??
what if I want but I cant??
what if I would like to on the one hand but I dont want on the other?
what if my heart loves being free and doing what I want to
but my heart also loves u??
what if I dont know what I want?
what if I cant make this decision??
cause if one day you wake up
and find that you´re missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
where on this earth I could be
what if I woke up and found that Im missing u???
what if I absolutely have no clue what to do??
what if I want but I cant??
what if I would like to on the one hand but I dont want on the other?
what if my heart loves being free and doing what I want to
but my heart also loves u??
what if I dont know what I want?
what if I cant make this decision??
Freitag, 3. Oktober 2008
Im not alone
Theres a reason, theres a rhyme
theres a season a mark in time
show me the answer lay down your cards
read the future from the stars
Ive had
hard times trying to brake me down
hard times over again
hard times trying to get me down
I will survive, Ill survive because of your love
I hear the demons, I search for God
I spit the fire a glimpse in the dark
my mind is weak, my heart is strong
you try to shake me Im not standing alone
Im not on my own.
yeah there were hard times in my life..and they tried to brake me down..but u know what?
Im still alive..and I survived them because I wasnt alone..
because I had some people by my side who have been on my side and who helped me.
But I also had GOD on my side. and he brought me through everything!!
yeah Im not alone!
theres a season a mark in time
show me the answer lay down your cards
read the future from the stars
Ive had
hard times trying to brake me down
hard times over again
hard times trying to get me down
I will survive, Ill survive because of your love
I hear the demons, I search for God
I spit the fire a glimpse in the dark
my mind is weak, my heart is strong
you try to shake me Im not standing alone
Im not on my own.
yeah there were hard times in my life..and they tried to brake me down..but u know what?
Im still alive..and I survived them because I wasnt alone..
because I had some people by my side who have been on my side and who helped me.
But I also had GOD on my side. and he brought me through everything!!
yeah Im not alone!
I give everything for u!
Im really surprised.
I had a really good conversation with a girl from my youth group.
And I really liked what I heard and what she said about her relationship to God.
It really made me happy to hear that she wants to go on and go deeper into the relationship with God. awesome, thank u Jesus!!
Im so thankful that God gives me some great people to talk about him and other stuff.
Its so important to talk and its so important to have companionship.
I so love to see people growing in their identity and I also love seeing how I grow step by step.
I love to see Gods changes and his work in people.
and I wanna go on and on and I dont wanna stop growing..
I dont wanna look back becos it just enchains me...its here and now, its today, and its a new day, a day HE made. and I can use it to live for HIM.
you gave everything for me - now I give everything for you!! Here I am, living for your glory!!
I had a really good conversation with a girl from my youth group.
And I really liked what I heard and what she said about her relationship to God.
It really made me happy to hear that she wants to go on and go deeper into the relationship with God. awesome, thank u Jesus!!
Im so thankful that God gives me some great people to talk about him and other stuff.
Its so important to talk and its so important to have companionship.
I so love to see people growing in their identity and I also love seeing how I grow step by step.
I love to see Gods changes and his work in people.
and I wanna go on and on and I dont wanna stop growing..
I dont wanna look back becos it just enchains me...its here and now, its today, and its a new day, a day HE made. and I can use it to live for HIM.
you gave everything for me - now I give everything for you!! Here I am, living for your glory!!
Mittwoch, 1. Oktober 2008
england..
somehow it just seems like EVERYONE is going to go to england..
everyone but me.
and somehow it feels strange to read it because the only thing I wish at the moment is that I could go too...
and somehow it really pisses me off...
Like I already said I have a really good time here and stuff but..
why cant I just leave and experience some new stuff..I would so love to..
everyone but me.
and somehow it feels strange to read it because the only thing I wish at the moment is that I could go too...
and somehow it really pisses me off...
Like I already said I have a really good time here and stuff but..
why cant I just leave and experience some new stuff..I would so love to..
Im alive!!
its so good to feel free.
and its even better to feel alive!
after this examination today a load of sorrow fell from my heart..
sometimes i think im way too scared about such things and i destroy my own life through it.
but i dont wanna think about it any longer..Im free now and it feels sooo good!
just went for a walk the last hour and it was so wonderful to walk through the fields and to know that god is here and that I have to fear nothing...
the sun was shining warm on my face and the wind blew through my hair.
had some good music with me..but sometimes I wonder why those songs make me feel in a special way..I know that I listened to them at special times and they remind me about something but I just dont know what..
but Im just glad to have a lil bit freetime now..well okay, now some classmates are coming and we have to write some abstracts for our essay but I guess its gonna be fun somehow..
thank Jesus...he makes my whole life worth living!!
and its even better to feel alive!
after this examination today a load of sorrow fell from my heart..
sometimes i think im way too scared about such things and i destroy my own life through it.
but i dont wanna think about it any longer..Im free now and it feels sooo good!
just went for a walk the last hour and it was so wonderful to walk through the fields and to know that god is here and that I have to fear nothing...
the sun was shining warm on my face and the wind blew through my hair.
had some good music with me..but sometimes I wonder why those songs make me feel in a special way..I know that I listened to them at special times and they remind me about something but I just dont know what..
but Im just glad to have a lil bit freetime now..well okay, now some classmates are coming and we have to write some abstracts for our essay but I guess its gonna be fun somehow..
thank Jesus...he makes my whole life worth living!!
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