god and all the people..

so one more time I got the evidence that I shouldn´t trust people!
You always get betrayed and get telled lies.
what have I done wrong that I´m always the one who´s the sacrifice in the end?
And how should I be a wonderful person when my parents tell me everyday that I´m lazy, terrible and that I´m not able to live my life?
I´m just human, I can´t bear thousands of things and I also don´t want it!!
I´m so glad that I have Jesus. Without him I would go crazy! he´s the one who gives me the strength to stay calm when they hit me with their words. he´s the one who gives me the love to help people although I just wanna hate them. I can´t tell you "confound you!"..because you´re too important for me.

Jesus please give me strength to carry on..sometimes life seems like a nightmare..but I know that I have a strong foundation in you and that you´re the one who will give me strength till the end of my days.
Let me be a pure love giver for the people who need love because they don´t get it anywhere.
let me be someone who tries to help people to get to the point where they´re free (as far as I can help..in the end it´s their own decision). Let me be someone who can help to carry their bullshit through the hard times.
You broke my heart for the people who need help..it hurts a lot..but it´s good!
thank you jesus for loving me!

maybe I can help you..but you should know that it´s YOUR decision what you wanna do!