England and community

so today I started my job as a charlady..wonderful..I always loved cleaning floors..
but its good that I have that job for 3 months because I´ll get good money for that and maybe then I´m able to fly to england for a visit in manchester or bristol or whatever..
the main thing is I can get back there as soon as possible cos otherwise I get crazy!
to be honest i don´t have a clue how it should go on now..
I have to pay back lots of money, I have to stay in school although I hate it and the only thing I really want it to go back...
but I´ll trust in god..cos he really showed me his love through the whole holidays..there wasnt even one day I felt like hes not there..he showed me that he provides me through every life situation..he showed me his mercy and he helps me to get my life to a point where I am free - without any chains..
I really really figured out that god is ALWAYS there. no matter whats happening hes always with me..thats something that really makes me feel safe even if there are things in life I dont really know hot to handle with..

yesterday I met with Flo and Kaddy and we just had a really nice time talkin, laughin, havin fun...I really dont see flo that often but everytime we do something together it feels like there wouldnt be anything between us..just felt like family yesterday...and its so wonderful to know that u have a family that stands behind you and strengthens u when ur real family doesnt.
thats what I call community, tats what I call chruch. we dont need a big priest or a long sermon..we need each other, conversations, discussions, fun and the knowing that god loves to hang around with us like this! and I´m sure he loves it..
it was sad to say goodbye to flo but in the meantime its not as hard as it has been formerly..because I know hes coming back and I also know that I dont need to see people all the time because if they are real friends they stay ur friends even if they are far away or if you are far away..we´re bonded with our hearts so no distance can really seperate us..
and I thank god that hes showing this to me at the moment so it wont be that hard to go away when I´ll leave this town..and that what I WILL do someday!