you can call me crazy!!
and slowly I also believe I am!
but you know what? I DON´T CARE!
People, I see Jesus! everyday again and again..I see him working and changing things and people around me. I hear his voice that is telling me what I have to do!
I feel his love, his glory and his grace inside of me. everything seems to be easier.
I no longer believe that he is right here next to me..I no longer believe he can change things..and I no longer doubt about his ways.
I KNOW that he´s with me all the time! I KNOW he CAN and WILL change things and I KNOW he has the right way for me...I´ll go on this way as long as he wants me to.
and if he wants me to turn around or to move my ass to another place he will show me.
I know there´s a reason for everything that is happening here. there´s a reason that I´m on this school. maybe I need to learn that there´s no sense in running away from the things that are hard to bear. maybe he really wants me to bring him, God, to this school.
maybe he thinks I could need those people there in my life..and yeah, maybe he´s right.
I got to know wonderful people, I wouldn´t wanna miss them..
and maybe there are some scrutinies that I have to pass...I know that every single problem there makes me ready to go out someday..to go my way.
and the most important thing in all this confusing stuff is that I don´t lose sight of God.
that I hold on to my amazing lord. that I fix my eyes upon my jesus. because without him it won´t work..that´s the only thing that´s really clear to me.
And yes I´m sitting here and I´m waiting for a few answers that could maybe change my whole life! and it´s hard to sit here and to wait and wait and wait and nothing´s going on..but maybe that´s just another challenge..maybe I´m too impatient..I know I am ;)
Just like to have a stupid mail now..but yeah, there´s nothing I can do but wait..and God knows what he´s doing.
Today in school I was absolutely amazed..I got back 14 point in religion..I couldn´t believe that! because after I wrote this examination I just felt like God told me absolutely everything I should write down. I felt like I wrote a preaching and I didn´t know if this was good or bad..I thought maybe I totally got 100 points or I´ll absolutely fail..
well apparently I got my 100 points..well...99 but I don´t care because I know it was God and that´s so amazing!
Tomorrow and on thursday I´ll fast..because God told me I should..So I would..I don´t know why, but I guess it´s because I should have a deep time with god..so I also wanna try to use my computer as less as possible..
Daddy I´m living for you..and everyday I find out a bit more what that really means! I love you God!
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Der Jesus freut sich so dich jeden Tag zu sehn. Er freut sich wenn du morgends aufwachst und er dir dann in deine wunderschönen Augen schaun kann, und er freut sich wenn du verschlafen ins Bad gehst und den neuen Tag startest. Er freut sich immer ganz besonders, wenn du an Ihn denkst. er freut sich, wenn du Ihn um Hilfe bittest...denn Er ist der eine Freund, der immer helfen kann. Und wenn du traurig bist, dann wartet Er nur darauf, dass Er dich in den Arm nehmen darf. Und Er ist so stolz wenn Du seine Hand nimmst und dich nach einem Sturz wieder aufraffst und weiter ein paar Schritte stolperst...
Und wenn du dich abends ins Bett legst, dann deckt Er dich zu mit seiner Liebe...
ja, der Jesus liebt dich wirklich...und wie..
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