Actually Im pretty happy with my life at the moment!!
The sun is shining again, I know that spring is coming soon (it cant be long until spring is there), Ive got a cool internship and I hope Im gonna go to england in august...AND Im gonna visit kaddi in manchester soon! everythings cool!
only ONE thing bothers me...I still need a job! I need something to earn money...I NEED MONEY for england..and I have NO CLUE where I should get it from because EVERYWHERE Im trying to get a job they dont need anyone...feels like Ive asked EVERYWHERE..the only thing I could maye do is work in the cafeteria in...yeah..guess where?? In my old school...and thats the most horrible thing I could imagine...I would rather clean every flippin house in kirchheim than doing that..
I really need that money but thats something like soul-torture...
well lets just see what happens..I just hope that god will give me a job or that money falls from heaven or what do I know...:/
its definitely a difficult thing..
but still Im thankful that god changed me sooo much! Im on a good way, I know it..
And its getting better every day..and I realize that here are some people I can really have fun with! Some people I can trust..some people who care..and thats good to know when the best friend is over the sea ;)
And still I love her and I know shes the best friend i can have..no distance can keep us apart and nothing could seperate our hearts...now that I got that, and understand it. not just in my head but also in my heart, its alright!! Im lookin foreward to our time in manchester, it will be amazing!!
Mittwoch, 25. Februar 2009
Samstag, 21. Februar 2009
amazing God
Im absolutely amazed by God!!
Every and every day again I experience his great love for me, and every day again I have to make the decision if I trust in God and give it all to him or if I run my earthly life, trying to be good and successful - but in the end fail with it!
And the more often I decide to trust in him the more good things are happening.
Yesterday a good friend of mine told me something really encouraging! He´s been away for 5 months and he said "Im coming back and I see that you are the one that was growing the most. Look at you, you changed so much!!"
Wow, thats something that was soo good to hear!!
And I also see that God changed me a lot! He changed me in a positive way..and of course Im not perfect, I still got my faults and I still have days where Im not really sure if everything is alright..but Im on the way..yeah I feel that Im goin on and on, I step into Gods adventure for me and Im so excited what is to come!
I see his love and its so so SOOO big!!! I cant describe with words how happy his love makes me, but maybe I can describe it like that: I dont need a man who loves me at the moment, because I feel and know that theres a GOD who loves me even more than anyone could.
That doesnt mean that I dont want a partner someday, but I know that God has the right time for everything...And I know that God is the best lover I can have. The best daddy, the best saviour, the best friend, the best provider and the best encourager!!
Wow, can I have more of you Jesus?? please!!
Every and every day again I experience his great love for me, and every day again I have to make the decision if I trust in God and give it all to him or if I run my earthly life, trying to be good and successful - but in the end fail with it!
And the more often I decide to trust in him the more good things are happening.
Yesterday a good friend of mine told me something really encouraging! He´s been away for 5 months and he said "Im coming back and I see that you are the one that was growing the most. Look at you, you changed so much!!"
Wow, thats something that was soo good to hear!!
And I also see that God changed me a lot! He changed me in a positive way..and of course Im not perfect, I still got my faults and I still have days where Im not really sure if everything is alright..but Im on the way..yeah I feel that Im goin on and on, I step into Gods adventure for me and Im so excited what is to come!
I see his love and its so so SOOO big!!! I cant describe with words how happy his love makes me, but maybe I can describe it like that: I dont need a man who loves me at the moment, because I feel and know that theres a GOD who loves me even more than anyone could.
That doesnt mean that I dont want a partner someday, but I know that God has the right time for everything...And I know that God is the best lover I can have. The best daddy, the best saviour, the best friend, the best provider and the best encourager!!
Wow, can I have more of you Jesus?? please!!
Sonntag, 15. Februar 2009
preachin!!!
hallelujah!! I had such a cool weekend, and today was totally awesome!!
On Saturday I was soo glad to know that I got 2 days off from everything and everyone!!
So I took some time for me and god in the morning, went to horseback riding in the afternoon and met a friend and skyped with kaddi and went to the hot springs with my mum...I enjoyed it so much, except the fact that I fell on my elbow and my back because the floor was wet and slippery..that wasnt much fun because it hurt and it still does^^ but who cares..thats so typical for me..!!
so today I went to see chrissie and kerstin and we had such a cool day...we had breakfast at her church, afterwards we went for a walk with the dog and then we baked some "schneckennudeln". And THEN we went to young move in reichenbach...and I preached the first time in my life..
one hour before it started I was so excited, but then I listened to "I have found" by kim walker and some people prayed for me and that was soooo good..so before I had to preach I wasnt excited anymore and I had an awesome worship time..and then I had to preach and at the beginning it felt kind of weird...but ater a while I had sooo much fun!! It was sooo cool and felt so good because it really felt like God was using me!! Wow!!
so Im absolutely amazed and I coud go on preaching immediately, its so cool to tell people about God...I had such a cool time!! Thank Jesus, hes amazing, wonderful, glorious and the only real majesty!!
I have found a peace that plows through every storm
I have found a joy that jumps over sadness
I have found a love that lights up every room
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
I have found a trust that teaches how to rest
I have found a grace that guides me by the hand
I have found a strength that stands like a mountain
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
(Kim Walker - I have found)
On Saturday I was soo glad to know that I got 2 days off from everything and everyone!!
So I took some time for me and god in the morning, went to horseback riding in the afternoon and met a friend and skyped with kaddi and went to the hot springs with my mum...I enjoyed it so much, except the fact that I fell on my elbow and my back because the floor was wet and slippery..that wasnt much fun because it hurt and it still does^^ but who cares..thats so typical for me..!!
so today I went to see chrissie and kerstin and we had such a cool day...we had breakfast at her church, afterwards we went for a walk with the dog and then we baked some "schneckennudeln". And THEN we went to young move in reichenbach...and I preached the first time in my life..
one hour before it started I was so excited, but then I listened to "I have found" by kim walker and some people prayed for me and that was soooo good..so before I had to preach I wasnt excited anymore and I had an awesome worship time..and then I had to preach and at the beginning it felt kind of weird...but ater a while I had sooo much fun!! It was sooo cool and felt so good because it really felt like God was using me!! Wow!!
so Im absolutely amazed and I coud go on preaching immediately, its so cool to tell people about God...I had such a cool time!! Thank Jesus, hes amazing, wonderful, glorious and the only real majesty!!
I have found a peace that plows through every storm
I have found a joy that jumps over sadness
I have found a love that lights up every room
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
I have found a trust that teaches how to rest
I have found a grace that guides me by the hand
I have found a strength that stands like a mountain
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
(Kim Walker - I have found)
Mittwoch, 11. Februar 2009
circumstances
one more time in my life I realize that I fix too much on circumstances, people and the things Im used to..
And one more time in my life I realize that I cant fix my eyes upon this stuff becos it doesnt keep me safe..it doesnt stay the same most of the time..and its not what gives me security.
I realize that there are many problems in this world and that loads of things are happening that are not good..that are not easy to handle with..and that lots of people come to me with their problems..because I offer them that Im there for them..
And I like being there for them..as long as I have someone I can talk to about all the stuff...as long as there is someone who shares all those hard things with me..
And I know that there is God, and thats good! Im so thankful..butI also need someone around me who talks with me about it..who just listens to me when I tell of all the stuff people tell me...
Somehow Im jut not content with everything at the moment..I mean, there are awesome moments in my life, the best times are when Im around people, when we´re doing worship, when we pray or when we just talk..
but somehow somethings missing..somehow Im still alone..somehow some things are not alright..but I dont know what it is..I have to figure out whats wrong..
And one more time in my life I realize that I cant fix my eyes upon this stuff becos it doesnt keep me safe..it doesnt stay the same most of the time..and its not what gives me security.
I realize that there are many problems in this world and that loads of things are happening that are not good..that are not easy to handle with..and that lots of people come to me with their problems..because I offer them that Im there for them..
And I like being there for them..as long as I have someone I can talk to about all the stuff...as long as there is someone who shares all those hard things with me..
And I know that there is God, and thats good! Im so thankful..butI also need someone around me who talks with me about it..who just listens to me when I tell of all the stuff people tell me...
Somehow Im jut not content with everything at the moment..I mean, there are awesome moments in my life, the best times are when Im around people, when we´re doing worship, when we pray or when we just talk..
but somehow somethings missing..somehow Im still alone..somehow some things are not alright..but I dont know what it is..I have to figure out whats wrong..
Mittwoch, 4. Februar 2009
lazyness..
somehow Im really too lazy to write something these days..
oh yes Im soooo lazy, I dont even know why..
however...my internship began and actually its pretty cool, but I cant say much until now, so Im just excited how it will be in the future!
Unfortunetely I do not find that much time for God and me at the moment..and I dont like that.
Because I need time with my God, otherwise I become weak and weary.
You know that when you do so many things for gods kingdom that you do not find time to live relationship with him? thats mad!
But Im realising more and more how important personal relationships are for me..
thas so good.
Im thinkin a lot about my future at the moment..about england..somehow Im a bit scared about it, maybe thats the reason why I just dont finish my application..and I hate the fact that I dont have a job to earn some money..I still have to pay back some money to my dad for my driving licence...and he wont stop telling me this until he has that flippin money..and how should I give it to him without a job? FLIP!
whatever..Gods my provider, I still believe this..and Im sure he will do something!
oh yes Im soooo lazy, I dont even know why..
however...my internship began and actually its pretty cool, but I cant say much until now, so Im just excited how it will be in the future!
Unfortunetely I do not find that much time for God and me at the moment..and I dont like that.
Because I need time with my God, otherwise I become weak and weary.
You know that when you do so many things for gods kingdom that you do not find time to live relationship with him? thats mad!
But Im realising more and more how important personal relationships are for me..
thas so good.
Im thinkin a lot about my future at the moment..about england..somehow Im a bit scared about it, maybe thats the reason why I just dont finish my application..and I hate the fact that I dont have a job to earn some money..I still have to pay back some money to my dad for my driving licence...and he wont stop telling me this until he has that flippin money..and how should I give it to him without a job? FLIP!
whatever..Gods my provider, I still believe this..and Im sure he will do something!
Dienstag, 20. Januar 2009
hearing gods voice
maybe I should update this blog here..
I didnt wrote something for a long time..
The last week was pretty interesting for me..I did some steps foreward in hearing gods voice..
Especially when it was about ungodly believes and soaking God talked a lot to me.
I got many pictures and he told me some stuff about our relationship and also about the relationship to my parents. To be honest this is the hardest part of it all..
I really have to learn to just love them, no matter what.
I have to learn to forgive them and not to bear a grudge..because they are my parents and Im trying to think about the fact that they do all those things because they love me and they want me to be save.
There was also something hard I realized about all this stuff: I will never be able to wrap them into my arms because I forgave them and they forgave me..because they dont even really know what forgiveness means because they dont accept the forgiveness from Jesus.
They dont know how much forgiveness means to me and also they dont know how hard it is for me to forgive (them).
But God also told me that he is working inside of them..And I really wanna believe him..I wanna pray for them.
I know that God is working inside of me too..I feel it and its not always easy..
Its also not easy because the only person I can really talk about it all without feeling misunderstood is in england.
But I know that she is even there for me when shes in England! And thats so good.
But I nevertheless miss her..
Im excited what happens in the next few weeks of my week..lets see..
I didnt wrote something for a long time..
The last week was pretty interesting for me..I did some steps foreward in hearing gods voice..
Especially when it was about ungodly believes and soaking God talked a lot to me.
I got many pictures and he told me some stuff about our relationship and also about the relationship to my parents. To be honest this is the hardest part of it all..
I really have to learn to just love them, no matter what.
I have to learn to forgive them and not to bear a grudge..because they are my parents and Im trying to think about the fact that they do all those things because they love me and they want me to be save.
There was also something hard I realized about all this stuff: I will never be able to wrap them into my arms because I forgave them and they forgave me..because they dont even really know what forgiveness means because they dont accept the forgiveness from Jesus.
They dont know how much forgiveness means to me and also they dont know how hard it is for me to forgive (them).
But God also told me that he is working inside of them..And I really wanna believe him..I wanna pray for them.
I know that God is working inside of me too..I feel it and its not always easy..
Its also not easy because the only person I can really talk about it all without feeling misunderstood is in england.
But I know that she is even there for me when shes in England! And thats so good.
But I nevertheless miss her..
Im excited what happens in the next few weeks of my week..lets see..
Sonntag, 11. Januar 2009
blubb
so just some updates of my life..
kaddi left on friday and it felt like I could never stop cryin again..people I tell u Ill never bring anyone to an airport again..thats so horrible to see that someone leaving and youre just like "nooooo dont go!!"
whatever..now Im kinda alone here, I stil got some friends but noone compares to her.
some old friends arent interested at all to stay in contact so atm its a time full of goodbies which Im not very happy about.
Im so happy that the ppl from toronto are here..I spend loads of time with them and Im so happy about it. Theyre so openhearted, so friendly and so loving, and even if theyre only here since about a week with some of them its like we knew eac other for a longer time..
its great fun making music with them, dance with them or just hang around and talk.
next weekend its gonna be the soaking weekend and I will be there...Im glad about it. Glad about bein away from home for 2 days..
just have some hard times with my parents becos I quit school..its annoying becos actually I just want some freetime now, without thinkin that much about the upcoming time, becos I have enough time to think about that all when I start my internship in february..
I just wanna be free for at least a few weeks becos I reli need some time for myself now without always worrying about anything..its so exhausting...!!
lifes okay somehow..I miss kaddi but i know its best for her to be in manchester...
so goodnite guys...
kaddi left on friday and it felt like I could never stop cryin again..people I tell u Ill never bring anyone to an airport again..thats so horrible to see that someone leaving and youre just like "nooooo dont go!!"
whatever..now Im kinda alone here, I stil got some friends but noone compares to her.
some old friends arent interested at all to stay in contact so atm its a time full of goodbies which Im not very happy about.
Im so happy that the ppl from toronto are here..I spend loads of time with them and Im so happy about it. Theyre so openhearted, so friendly and so loving, and even if theyre only here since about a week with some of them its like we knew eac other for a longer time..
its great fun making music with them, dance with them or just hang around and talk.
next weekend its gonna be the soaking weekend and I will be there...Im glad about it. Glad about bein away from home for 2 days..
just have some hard times with my parents becos I quit school..its annoying becos actually I just want some freetime now, without thinkin that much about the upcoming time, becos I have enough time to think about that all when I start my internship in february..
I just wanna be free for at least a few weeks becos I reli need some time for myself now without always worrying about anything..its so exhausting...!!
lifes okay somehow..I miss kaddi but i know its best for her to be in manchester...
so goodnite guys...
Dienstag, 6. Januar 2009
my wonderful saviour
so here I am..back home..and somehow Im glad..but on the other hand its a pity..
I reli dont miss the kitchen..I dont miss stinkin the whole day becos everything thats near the kitchen is stinkin...I also dont miss it to miss some great stuff becos Im standing in the kitchen..
Really..Ill never ever go into the kitchen again..cutting vegetables, washing the dishes, put away plates, glasses and shit like that..really..thats not my kind of work, thats what I figured out..
we had hard times sometimes..we didnt sleep much..we went to bed very late (or better said early) and got up at 7 am..we were standin in the kitchen when all the others had fun in the café, at seminars or somewhere alse, and we also missed a part of a very good worship time with the people from toronto...today we didnt even know if we could go to the last service becos we needed to clean the kitchen...
I guess God REALLY wanted to show me how precious these times are..where I can stand and worship him, where I can listen to good sermons, where I can just have some time for myself and him, some time to come down..and I guess he also wanted to show me that its sometimes very hard to have a serving heart...but that there are situations in life where its hard to give him honour but you nevertheless should do it ALL THE TIME in your life..
Yesterday evenin I had a very good worship time..all the evenings it was about bein real...before yourself, before other people and before God...
Sometimes Im reli stupid..I think I could show God how great he is and how much I worship him and stuff...and its not like I wouldnt mean that.
But sometimes its just not how I wish it would be...and so God told me yesterday that I should just lay down and enjoy the time with him..and thats what I did..and it was so good..becos before that worship time Ive been so dissatisfied with my relationship to him, with myself and with everything..and afterwards Ive been so calm..yeah..and happy!
so I reli figured out that God is good in every way..how wonderful our god is..Im reli thankful!! who would I be without him?? NOBODY!!
I reli dont miss the kitchen..I dont miss stinkin the whole day becos everything thats near the kitchen is stinkin...I also dont miss it to miss some great stuff becos Im standing in the kitchen..
Really..Ill never ever go into the kitchen again..cutting vegetables, washing the dishes, put away plates, glasses and shit like that..really..thats not my kind of work, thats what I figured out..
we had hard times sometimes..we didnt sleep much..we went to bed very late (or better said early) and got up at 7 am..we were standin in the kitchen when all the others had fun in the café, at seminars or somewhere alse, and we also missed a part of a very good worship time with the people from toronto...today we didnt even know if we could go to the last service becos we needed to clean the kitchen...
I guess God REALLY wanted to show me how precious these times are..where I can stand and worship him, where I can listen to good sermons, where I can just have some time for myself and him, some time to come down..and I guess he also wanted to show me that its sometimes very hard to have a serving heart...but that there are situations in life where its hard to give him honour but you nevertheless should do it ALL THE TIME in your life..
Yesterday evenin I had a very good worship time..all the evenings it was about bein real...before yourself, before other people and before God...
Sometimes Im reli stupid..I think I could show God how great he is and how much I worship him and stuff...and its not like I wouldnt mean that.
But sometimes its just not how I wish it would be...and so God told me yesterday that I should just lay down and enjoy the time with him..and thats what I did..and it was so good..becos before that worship time Ive been so dissatisfied with my relationship to him, with myself and with everything..and afterwards Ive been so calm..yeah..and happy!
so I reli figured out that God is good in every way..how wonderful our god is..Im reli thankful!! who would I be without him?? NOBODY!!
Donnerstag, 1. Januar 2009
why am I not allowed to...
so here we are in the year 2009..
actually its still unbelievable for me that the year 2008 is already over becos sometimes it seems as if time was runnin..
I clearly remember summer 2008 and i cant believe 6 months passed since Ive been at zeltstadt and stuff...
but whatever I think or however it feels, its over and something new is coming now.
And Im reli lookin foreward to everything that will happen this year. Im sure there will be lots of challenges and changes.
Somehow Im a bit scared about that but actually most of all Im excited becos goin through changes means growing in identity.
I know that God planned this whole year to be a year full of changes for me..the first change will come soon..kaddi will leave..and to be honest: I never had to dispense without her for such a long time. Im sure it will be hard..I cant just call her when i feel like it, I cant visit her whenever I want, she cant come around to share 2 hours together..yeah Ill pretty much miss her..but I know that this friendship was built in heaven and so Im sure that it will last..no matter what happens, were gonna stay together..Im gonna visit her, probably sometime in april..
and Im sure were gonna hev a great time then and maybe will visit some friends too..
another challenge will be the internship Im gonna do..its something completely new for me..and that I wont ever go to school again is a strange feeling..it will be my first year without school!
when everything turns out right Im gonna leave this country in 8 months to stay in england for 10 months. Without a doubt thats the biggest challenge..never been away from homw for such a long time..but..I know its what God wants me to do and so Im gonna do it and Im reli lookin foreward to it. Sometimes I wish I could leave immediately.
Im sure that God will do something in our prayer group..becos I know that we are ready to go for whatever he has for us and there could be crazy things goin on!!
I wanna learn to trust God more and more..I wanna give my life fully into his hands and I reli wanna give my WHOLE LIFE to serve him and other people..Im not quite sure how this will look like and I dont know what Im gonna do or what will be my way..but it feels like God would want to show it to me within this year 2009.
So I can be excited!! And I am..
well..actually almost everythings perfect right now..Im gonna go to the nordalb tomorrow to the new years camp and Im sure well have a good time..Kaddi and me are in the kitchen..it will be funny I guess ;)
so..actually almost everythings perfect...theres only ONE thing....
Your beauty pricks directly into my heart
your kind of being impresses me so deeply
your eyes dispossess me of my mind
youre so confused somtimes, it makes me laugh
everything you do makes me love you more and more
why am I not allowed to have you?
actually its still unbelievable for me that the year 2008 is already over becos sometimes it seems as if time was runnin..
I clearly remember summer 2008 and i cant believe 6 months passed since Ive been at zeltstadt and stuff...
but whatever I think or however it feels, its over and something new is coming now.
And Im reli lookin foreward to everything that will happen this year. Im sure there will be lots of challenges and changes.
Somehow Im a bit scared about that but actually most of all Im excited becos goin through changes means growing in identity.
I know that God planned this whole year to be a year full of changes for me..the first change will come soon..kaddi will leave..and to be honest: I never had to dispense without her for such a long time. Im sure it will be hard..I cant just call her when i feel like it, I cant visit her whenever I want, she cant come around to share 2 hours together..yeah Ill pretty much miss her..but I know that this friendship was built in heaven and so Im sure that it will last..no matter what happens, were gonna stay together..Im gonna visit her, probably sometime in april..
and Im sure were gonna hev a great time then and maybe will visit some friends too..
another challenge will be the internship Im gonna do..its something completely new for me..and that I wont ever go to school again is a strange feeling..it will be my first year without school!
when everything turns out right Im gonna leave this country in 8 months to stay in england for 10 months. Without a doubt thats the biggest challenge..never been away from homw for such a long time..but..I know its what God wants me to do and so Im gonna do it and Im reli lookin foreward to it. Sometimes I wish I could leave immediately.
Im sure that God will do something in our prayer group..becos I know that we are ready to go for whatever he has for us and there could be crazy things goin on!!
I wanna learn to trust God more and more..I wanna give my life fully into his hands and I reli wanna give my WHOLE LIFE to serve him and other people..Im not quite sure how this will look like and I dont know what Im gonna do or what will be my way..but it feels like God would want to show it to me within this year 2009.
So I can be excited!! And I am..
well..actually almost everythings perfect right now..Im gonna go to the nordalb tomorrow to the new years camp and Im sure well have a good time..Kaddi and me are in the kitchen..it will be funny I guess ;)
so..actually almost everythings perfect...theres only ONE thing....
Your beauty pricks directly into my heart
your kind of being impresses me so deeply
your eyes dispossess me of my mind
youre so confused somtimes, it makes me laugh
everything you do makes me love you more and more
Montag, 29. Dezember 2008
I praise you in this storm
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
(Casting crowns - praise you in this storm)
sometimes its not that easy to lift eyes and hands up to jesus to praise him becos sometimes things r just not goin like i wuld want them to..
Im sad these days.
becos I hate it to say goodbye to people that are important to me..
and I hate not to know what will happen...
and I hate to wait..
well actually its not that Im full of hate atm...just full of sadness.
cos everybodys leavin but me..I will stay here..pretend its good. let u think Im alrite.
and Im gonna go foreward and Im gonna praise the lord becos he is still good!
"all of my life, in every season, you are still god, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship"
God always stays the same and yes, sometimes he gives and sometimes he takes away...and sometimes its painful when he takes away..but he does not take away without a reason..he just takes away what destroys us and what isnt good for us..it hurts, but in the end it will be alrite!
no matter what comes I reli wanna try to fix my eyes upon jesus and to give him praie, every day, every hour, every minute of my life. Give praise, be joyful and thankful all the time becos God gave me so much..he gave me this life to live it just for him.
oh praise him!!
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
(Casting crowns - praise you in this storm)
sometimes its not that easy to lift eyes and hands up to jesus to praise him becos sometimes things r just not goin like i wuld want them to..
Im sad these days.
becos I hate it to say goodbye to people that are important to me..
and I hate not to know what will happen...
and I hate to wait..
well actually its not that Im full of hate atm...just full of sadness.
cos everybodys leavin but me..I will stay here..pretend its good. let u think Im alrite.
and Im gonna go foreward and Im gonna praise the lord becos he is still good!
"all of my life, in every season, you are still god, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship"
God always stays the same and yes, sometimes he gives and sometimes he takes away...and sometimes its painful when he takes away..but he does not take away without a reason..he just takes away what destroys us and what isnt good for us..it hurts, but in the end it will be alrite!
no matter what comes I reli wanna try to fix my eyes upon jesus and to give him praie, every day, every hour, every minute of my life. Give praise, be joyful and thankful all the time becos God gave me so much..he gave me this life to live it just for him.
oh praise him!!
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