my wonderful saviour

so here I am..back home..and somehow Im glad..but on the other hand its a pity..
I reli dont miss the kitchen..I dont miss stinkin the whole day becos everything thats near the kitchen is stinkin...I also dont miss it to miss some great stuff becos Im standing in the kitchen..
Really..Ill never ever go into the kitchen again..cutting vegetables, washing the dishes, put away plates, glasses and shit like that..really..thats not my kind of work, thats what I figured out..
we had hard times sometimes..we didnt sleep much..we went to bed very late (or better said early) and got up at 7 am..we were standin in the kitchen when all the others had fun in the café, at seminars or somewhere alse, and we also missed a part of a very good worship time with the people from toronto...today we didnt even know if we could go to the last service becos we needed to clean the kitchen...
I guess God REALLY wanted to show me how precious these times are..where I can stand and worship him, where I can listen to good sermons, where I can just have some time for myself and him, some time to come down..and I guess he also wanted to show me that its sometimes very hard to have a serving heart...but that there are situations in life where its hard to give him honour but you nevertheless should do it ALL THE TIME in your life..
Yesterday evenin I had a very good worship time..all the evenings it was about bein real...before yourself, before other people and before God...
Sometimes Im reli stupid..I think I could show God how great he is and how much I worship him and stuff...and its not like I wouldnt mean that.
But sometimes its just not how I wish it would be...and so God told me yesterday that I should just lay down and enjoy the time with him..and thats what I did..and it was so good..becos before that worship time Ive been so dissatisfied with my relationship to him, with myself and with everything..and afterwards Ive been so calm..yeah..and happy!
so I reli figured out that God is good in every way..how wonderful our god is..Im reli thankful!! who would I be without him?? NOBODY!!