circumstances

one more time in my life I realize that I fix too much on circumstances, people and the things Im used to..
And one more time in my life I realize that I cant fix my eyes upon this stuff becos it doesnt keep me safe..it doesnt stay the same most of the time..and its not what gives me security.
I realize that there are many problems in this world and that loads of things are happening that are not good..that are not easy to handle with..and that lots of people come to me with their problems..because I offer them that Im there for them..
And I like being there for them..as long as I have someone I can talk to about all the stuff...as long as there is someone who shares all those hard things with me..
And I know that there is God, and thats good! Im so thankful..butI also need someone around me who talks with me about it..who just listens to me when I tell of all the stuff people tell me...
Somehow Im jut not content with everything at the moment..I mean, there are awesome moments in my life, the best times are when Im around people, when we´re doing worship, when we pray or when we just talk..
but somehow somethings missing..somehow Im still alone..somehow some things are not alright..but I dont know what it is..I have to figure out whats wrong..