life..

sometimes I just cant believe how the time is running!
It feels like the year just started and now its may again...and it starts getting more and more interesting..when everything works out like I want it to Im gonna leave germany in a bit more that 3 months...which feels weird.
And Im gonna go to england..but..thats not everything. I think Ill really apply for the SOM in Toronto.
I never thought I would do that but sometimes Gods ways are different than we think.
Not much changed at all..Im still doing my job - delivering letters. I somehow hate it..and on the other hand its actually not that bad..I cant actually describe how I feel about it, its weird.
But that doesnt matter because I get some money for it and thats exactly what I need..
But sometimes Im still scared..that I dont have enough of it..
The things I wanna do, or better said the journeys to the other countries arent cheap...they are soo expensive..the only thing I can do is praying that God sends me a miracle or something...
So..actually thats all I gotta say..I dont know anything to tell..