Maybe I...

I'm not trying to take it easy
I'm not trying to help you see
I'm not trying to take us over
I'm just trying to believe

Maybe I... I'm not so easily stung
Maybe I... I got some love for someone
Maybe I... I'm just the story for you
Maybe I... I'll be the do you ought to do

Maybe I... I'm not the one for your love..

the TRUTH!!

why do people - and I do that too - always pray and say to Jesus "please jesus, show me what you want..what you want me to do and what you think is right!"
goodness..I prayed like that far too long..but now it made "click" and I just realize:
Jesus already TOLD me what he wants me to do..i just have to read his word..it´s so easy! so freakin easy and I make it too difficult!
And I feel desires in my heart, about places to go or things to do..why shouldn´t that be god? he puts the truth and the way into my heart..that´s what I long for..why shouldn´t it be god? why shouldn´t it be right?
If I wanna go to soul-survivor camp next week, why shouldn´t it be right? no matter how much it costs..I fckn don´t care about that NO LONGER!
I do what my desire is!
Why do I ask ans ask and think about if it would be right to go to bristol to school of ministry after school if that´s my wish? Jesus laid it into my heart..oh yes, I hardly can´t forget about that thought..so why should I?
and why do I always think I have to do so many things for christ? I have to do NOTHING! I CAN´T DO ANYTHING! escept one thing: I need to believe.
Believe that Jesus christ suffered and bleeded to DIE upon that cross..JUST for ME!
there´s no sin anymore..there´s no guilt..God reconciled the world with himself - through christ! he made jesus the sin..jesus died on the cross..the sin is DEAD!!
the only thing where we sin again and again is the fact that we don´t believe that Jesus made everything alright! and that we judge ourselves..because we still feel guilty..but WHY DO WE???? GOD FORGAVE US! People, why can´t we see that god already FORGAVE us??
we live with him through GRACE..nothing more!! NOTHING more!!
we will never be bad enough to not deserve the grace...but we will also never be good enough to deserve it! that´s the TRUTH!!I feel like I really realized for the first time that jesus really DIED! and that he beared everything..
And also something good: I don´t have to die to live forever! yeah people..I will live forever! Look at John 11, 25+26, what more to say?
I´m sure we will see revival in germany..the people want more..there are lots of people who want more! I want gods kingdom to come to earth! I wanna see people healed from their sickness..not only physically..also inside..in their soul..in their own sickness!! because jesus CAN! and he DOES heal!

THANK YOU JESUS

oh man ey..what I am allowed to experience in these holidays..it´s SO AMAZING!!!
I´ve been to the zeltstadt what was very good, not because it was a big event but because jesus showed me his glory and his holy spirit power! and that he LOVES me!
I´ve been to hockenheim and there were so much TRUTH spoken into my heart! so much that I first need to digest all that´s been told!
in november an south-african prophet will come to Jena and I´m sure I WILL BE THERE..because I wanna see miracles and wonders and REVIVAL in germany!!
and next week I´ll fly to england! and it WILL BE awesome! I expect A LOT of god, because everything that happens till now is a sign that it MUST be awesome.
thanks jesus..THANK YOU!

HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD!!

so now I´m gonna leave to hockenheim..packed my things in 15 minutes and now I´m ready to go!
and next week I´ll fly to ENGLAND!!! HALLELUJA!!
it´s so good! JESUS is so good and I´m so thankful!!

I will bring PRAISE!!!

It´s so UNBELIEVABLE what happens in my life at the moment.
Jesus opens doors where I only see a big wall! he makes it possible for me to make my dream come true: travelling, meeting some wonderful people and having conversation about god and the world, and it´s crazy, he´s my provider!
Today Kaddi, Flo, Silke, Tobi and I went to Tamm to visit the 3D service.
I was a bit unsure if this decision would be right, because to be honest, I rather wanted to go to the Jesus treff in stuttgart. But as it is often you just do what your friends do..but now I so GLAD about that!
after the service we went to a pizzeria to eat some pizza and have a good time with some wonderful people. and as we sat there we talked to two guys about soul survivor in england, and that one of them would go there with some others of the people who were there..Kaddi and me, just like we are were like "oh my god, I´d like to go there too..that sounds so awesome..I NEED to go there!". but it´s very expensive...too expensive for me to pay, definitely. that´s something I don´t need to think about..and what did these two guys say?? "we could lend you the money!"
I was just like "woooaaaahhh!!! you can´t lend me so much money, I don´t even really know you!" but they said they could, and they really DO!!
how awesome is that??? it´s a bit difficult for me just to take it, because its a lot of money..but Jesus, I´m so glad about it that I can´t say no!
so tomorrow we will book our flight and the place at the momentum camp..I just wanna sleep one night over that thought and pray that jesus shows me what to do..
People, I know this is crazy, it´s not what I planned for these holidays and the camp starts in 9 days..but I feel like I HAVE TO go there..that´s crazy..I always wished my life would be more interesting and that I could travel around and meet people just like so many do it..and now jesus really made it happen!!
This is the evidence that jesus LOVES me and that he´s my provider!

god and all the people..

so one more time I got the evidence that I shouldn´t trust people!
You always get betrayed and get telled lies.
what have I done wrong that I´m always the one who´s the sacrifice in the end?
And how should I be a wonderful person when my parents tell me everyday that I´m lazy, terrible and that I´m not able to live my life?
I´m just human, I can´t bear thousands of things and I also don´t want it!!
I´m so glad that I have Jesus. Without him I would go crazy! he´s the one who gives me the strength to stay calm when they hit me with their words. he´s the one who gives me the love to help people although I just wanna hate them. I can´t tell you "confound you!"..because you´re too important for me.

Jesus please give me strength to carry on..sometimes life seems like a nightmare..but I know that I have a strong foundation in you and that you´re the one who will give me strength till the end of my days.
Let me be a pure love giver for the people who need love because they don´t get it anywhere.
let me be someone who tries to help people to get to the point where they´re free (as far as I can help..in the end it´s their own decision). Let me be someone who can help to carry their bullshit through the hard times.
You broke my heart for the people who need help..it hurts a lot..but it´s good!
thank you jesus for loving me!

maybe I can help you..but you should know that it´s YOUR decision what you wanna do!

From where you are

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here
(Lifehouse - from where you are)

what a beautiful song..
just found it and I could cry because it´s so beautiful..just listen to it..

we took it to the streets!!!

thank you Jesus!!
We found some wonderful people of peace today.
we could pray for 2 ladies and the one of them got tears in her eyes when we were ready, and I think both of them were blessed and happy that somebody talked to them and prayed for them.
and we talked to an older man who told us about his life, what he experienced and about his marriage..he´s married since 55 years and its such a blessed marriage..that man was so wonderful. and all of them were so open-hearted.
Jesus I thank you that you prepared the people we talked to and that you created them just like they are - wonderful and loved by YOU!
it was such a good experience and I´m sure that we will do it more often in the future.
Jesus has everything in his hands, really!
I thought it would be so embarrassing and horrible to do that stuff in kirchheim. In Goeppingen and Geislingen I didn´t know anybody so it wasn´t that difficult, but I just thought like "oh my god I could meet someone I know, that would be so embarrassing..but it wasn´t! it was awesome!! It´s good to know that Jesus can use me and Kaddi to make people smile.
It´s good to know that even I can be a blssing for some people, because that´s something I always found hard to believe!
Hallelujah, praise the lord. MY GOD IS FAITHFUL AND HE CAN!!

take it to the streets!

today´s the first challenge back at home!
kaddi and I will take it to the streets..
in 5 minutes I´ll drive to kirchheim and then lat´s see what happens! :)
I´m excited but also looking foreward what god will do :)

Zeltstadt 2008

so I´m just back from the zeltstadt..and what to say?
I could tell for hours what I experienced..with god, with people, with myself! I´m so touched from god..and it´s not because I´ve been on a big event..don´t get me wrong, we had a wonderful worship, good sermons and stuff. but what I experienced was personal..Jesus and me!
and our team was so awesome..got to know some great people. at the beginning I was like "oh my god I don´t wanna stay here for two weeks, I won´t get into the group of those people, it´s horrible!" but they made it easy for me to get in and so I had some nice conversations and a lot of fun!
The best experience was to go out to the streets of Goeppingen to tell the people of god and his love for them and to pray for sickness. We went in teams of 2 persons and we prayed for a lady and talked to a man. And I decided to go on with that..so kaddi and me will go to the streets tomorrow! and yeah I´m excited about what happens!
I also had the chance to get rid of my past a little bit..the biggest step is of course not done, but I know now that Jesus fogave me every single bullshit I´ve done the last 7 years and it´s so good to just tell him about it and to apologize..and now I´m free.
I gave my testemony at thursday and I think it was the right decision..it wasn´t that easy to stand before a crowd of 600 people and tell about your broken life and the bullshit you have done. But I just wanted to show them that Jesus really can fix broken lives, yes HE CAN!!!
I´m free..free of all the stuff that brought me down..that doesn´t mean I´m free of thinking and some things still hurt..but that´s not the point. Jesus took EVERYTHING!! and he gave me a new heart..a heart that´s not full of pain..but a heart were a lot scars are..the scars will stay..but the pain is away..it´s healed! and it was JESUS!!

give praise the the one and only holy god!
give praise to the saviour and the one who heals
give praise to JESUS!!
he´s my saviour.
JESUS I LOVE YOU!