I will seek You Lord
While I am in my youth.
I will serve You Lord,
And I'll proclaim Your truth.
For You've searched and found me
While I was far away.
And in my troubled times
You've always kept me safe.
The Lord is my Light
and my Salvation
Whom Shall I Fear?
Whom Shall I Fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life
Whom Shall I Fear?
Whom Shall I Fear?
yeah, the Lord is my saviour, the lord is my light and my salvation!
sometimes I reli ask myself what I fear in this world??
theres nothing that could bring me down becos I have Jesus..and I wont fall deeper than into his loving hand! Im so safe in his arms...Im so safe no matter what comes my way.
Im so thankful for this unconditional love he has for me!! Im full of joy becos of my Lord. Im full of joy becos of his love and mercy, because hes almighty, becos I conquered the death, he conquered the devil. Hes holy, hes glorious, lets give him praise and honor!!
Freitag, 31. Oktober 2008
Donnerstag, 30. Oktober 2008
someone like...you?
I would love to share my life with someone..
someone who loves me and someone I love with all my heart.
Id love to go out to the streets with someone to tell the world that jesus lives and to pray for the sick and the hopeless.
Id love to have someone I could go to a worship-night with, and to know that he enjoys the same ways as I do.
Id love to have someone I can walk over fields and meadows with..someone who loves to have a walk, just like I do.
Id love to have someone I could just hang around with in my room, having good conversations, fun or maybe a good soaking time..
I would love to have someone with whom I could sit by the fireside and with whom I could drink some hot chocolate when its cold, snowing and freezing outside..
Id love to have someone with whom I could watch the lion king or some other old films that are so much better than all the new stuff thats out now..
Id just love to have someone to share life, thoughts, desires and love!
Of course I can do all this stuff alone or with friends..it can also be good...but its something reli different!
life isnt easier when u have a partner..but its so good not to be alone..
someone who loves me and someone I love with all my heart.
Id love to go out to the streets with someone to tell the world that jesus lives and to pray for the sick and the hopeless.
Id love to have someone I could go to a worship-night with, and to know that he enjoys the same ways as I do.
Id love to have someone I can walk over fields and meadows with..someone who loves to have a walk, just like I do.
Id love to have someone I could just hang around with in my room, having good conversations, fun or maybe a good soaking time..
I would love to have someone with whom I could sit by the fireside and with whom I could drink some hot chocolate when its cold, snowing and freezing outside..
Id love to have someone with whom I could watch the lion king or some other old films that are so much better than all the new stuff thats out now..
Id just love to have someone to share life, thoughts, desires and love!
Of course I can do all this stuff alone or with friends..it can also be good...but its something reli different!
life isnt easier when u have a partner..but its so good not to be alone..
trust and ppl
its just so typical..I guess u reli didnt change at all..
I thought I could trust u, and that ur not the same u were before..but hey..she?? she of all ppl?? I reli thought u would have more taste...whatever..its ur life!!
Its just one more evidence that I shouldnt trust ppl that much...or that I shouldnt turn away from my requirements..becos Jesus made me the way I am for a reason..and he filled my heart with desires for a reason..I reli should be more careful with my myself..
Im a princess of God and being lways in the 2nd row isnt enough for me. I deserve it to be treated as someone precious. I deserve it to be fully loved and not just a bit.
And yeah, Im gonna smile becos thats also something I deserve to!!
One more time I figured out that GOD is the ONLY one I can fully trust..that hes the only one who understands my desires, my thoughts(even if I dont understand them) and my life.
I reli dont know what Im searching for in this life...Im searching for more..but what do I want more?? I have Jesus..and I have a hand ful of REAL friends I can fully trust. And I have one girl I love more than anyone else in this world..becos I can tell her whatever I want and shes listening, shes praying for me and she understands, even if its foolish.
And thats all I need..what do I want more??
theres only one more thing I firgured out yesterday: I need a man whos watching The lion king with me ;) and who loves it the way I do! what an awesome film!!! <3
I thought I could trust u, and that ur not the same u were before..but hey..she?? she of all ppl?? I reli thought u would have more taste...whatever..its ur life!!
Its just one more evidence that I shouldnt trust ppl that much...or that I shouldnt turn away from my requirements..becos Jesus made me the way I am for a reason..and he filled my heart with desires for a reason..I reli should be more careful with my myself..
Im a princess of God and being lways in the 2nd row isnt enough for me. I deserve it to be treated as someone precious. I deserve it to be fully loved and not just a bit.
And yeah, Im gonna smile becos thats also something I deserve to!!
One more time I figured out that GOD is the ONLY one I can fully trust..that hes the only one who understands my desires, my thoughts(even if I dont understand them) and my life.
I reli dont know what Im searching for in this life...Im searching for more..but what do I want more?? I have Jesus..and I have a hand ful of REAL friends I can fully trust. And I have one girl I love more than anyone else in this world..becos I can tell her whatever I want and shes listening, shes praying for me and she understands, even if its foolish.
And thats all I need..what do I want more??
theres only one more thing I firgured out yesterday: I need a man whos watching The lion king with me ;) and who loves it the way I do! what an awesome film!!! <3
Dienstag, 28. Oktober 2008
precious people..
I had such an amazing time today..
met Dani, Chrissie and Kaddi in stuttgart, we went to starbucks and walked through the town, ate hamburgers and had an awesome time!!
slowly I get to the point where I realize which things Im gonna miss when I will be away.
its not my so called home..its not the daily grind..but its the people I know and love.
Its the "meetings" in stuttgart, goeppingen, what do I know where..its the hangin around together in starbucks or somewhere else..its some services where I meet ppl I dont meet that often..Its easily the time I spend with people who have a wonderful heart, who think in a way that I do, who are fun to hang around with and ppl with whom I can talk about god without being worried what they could think about the stuff I say..and some new friendships I made through the summer..Im gonna miss all those ppl..
but for sure Im gonna find some great ppl in england too..they will have a similar heart...becos we are gonna be at a bible school..and noone who isnt "burning for god" would go to such a school
oh yeah I just dont know how everything is gonna work out...and its just hard not to know what will come..becis I reli have NO IDEA about the future...:/
but god will make it alright..I still believe this even if I dont sound like that...sometimes its hard and there are some days where Im not that sure..but all in all I just KNOW that he will!!
met Dani, Chrissie and Kaddi in stuttgart, we went to starbucks and walked through the town, ate hamburgers and had an awesome time!!
slowly I get to the point where I realize which things Im gonna miss when I will be away.
its not my so called home..its not the daily grind..but its the people I know and love.
Its the "meetings" in stuttgart, goeppingen, what do I know where..its the hangin around together in starbucks or somewhere else..its some services where I meet ppl I dont meet that often..Its easily the time I spend with people who have a wonderful heart, who think in a way that I do, who are fun to hang around with and ppl with whom I can talk about god without being worried what they could think about the stuff I say..and some new friendships I made through the summer..Im gonna miss all those ppl..
but for sure Im gonna find some great ppl in england too..they will have a similar heart...becos we are gonna be at a bible school..and noone who isnt "burning for god" would go to such a school
oh yeah I just dont know how everything is gonna work out...and its just hard not to know what will come..becis I reli have NO IDEA about the future...:/
but god will make it alright..I still believe this even if I dont sound like that...sometimes its hard and there are some days where Im not that sure..but all in all I just KNOW that he will!!
Montag, 27. Oktober 2008
confusing...
the weekend was just awesome..when we arrived the party started and we danced a long time..and also had some nice conversations. After the dancing part we played some games and had just fun..
I cant help but I had such a good time up on the nordalb becos somehow its a place my heart loves..I have so many memories of this place, maybe not just good memories, also bad ones, but there are LOADS of good memories, and they weight much more than the bad stuff...
everytime I arrive there I feel like God wants to do something IN me..in my heart..and everytime Im there he really does something..its not always easy..most of the time the hard stuff happens there..
I enjoyed the weekend becos of all the precious ppl around me..becos of all the good conversations, the worship and prayer times, the chill out & fun times and the teachings..
but there were also some thought that are not easy to carry at all..
I know Im still hurt in so many parts of my heart..and thats okay..becos there were loads of things in my life that ppl did that werent okay. they hurt me, even if they didnt wanted to..they just did and there are some wounds that are not healed at all..but thats okay.
the thing that is much more irritating and confusing is all the stuff Im thinkin about atm...
its about england..Im yearning to go there and I still think that if I could I would immediatley pack my bags and fly there...and it wouldnt even be hard for the first time...but..When I go there Im gonna be there for 10 MONTHS...u know how long this is?? 10 months far far far away from here..maybe not far away from the place I call home..but far away from ppl I call "home"..from their hearts, where I sometimes find a missing piece of peace..
I know there will be awesome ppl over there...but I was always scared about being alone..thats one reason why I always wanted to go in a foreign country alone..
I actually dont even know whats my problem atm...I just know that I feel a bit lost here and that I dont really know what I should do now..Im hangin around here, my familys there, but they are not really "there"..theyre watching tv..and Im sitting in my room trying to find something that I could do but theres nothing that seems to make sense at all..I wanted to read a book (well to be honest not just one but about 3 or 4^^)...but I just dont feel like readin at the mom..
maybe its just becos Ive been surrounded of some awesome ppl the last few days..now I sit at home alone again..and I know that I should write an essay and that I should learn some business stuff..yeah maybe its the daily grind Im scared about.. jesus let me just fly away...
I cant help but I had such a good time up on the nordalb becos somehow its a place my heart loves..I have so many memories of this place, maybe not just good memories, also bad ones, but there are LOADS of good memories, and they weight much more than the bad stuff...
everytime I arrive there I feel like God wants to do something IN me..in my heart..and everytime Im there he really does something..its not always easy..most of the time the hard stuff happens there..
I enjoyed the weekend becos of all the precious ppl around me..becos of all the good conversations, the worship and prayer times, the chill out & fun times and the teachings..
but there were also some thought that are not easy to carry at all..
I know Im still hurt in so many parts of my heart..and thats okay..becos there were loads of things in my life that ppl did that werent okay. they hurt me, even if they didnt wanted to..they just did and there are some wounds that are not healed at all..but thats okay.
the thing that is much more irritating and confusing is all the stuff Im thinkin about atm...
its about england..Im yearning to go there and I still think that if I could I would immediatley pack my bags and fly there...and it wouldnt even be hard for the first time...but..When I go there Im gonna be there for 10 MONTHS...u know how long this is?? 10 months far far far away from here..maybe not far away from the place I call home..but far away from ppl I call "home"..from their hearts, where I sometimes find a missing piece of peace..
I know there will be awesome ppl over there...but I was always scared about being alone..thats one reason why I always wanted to go in a foreign country alone..
I actually dont even know whats my problem atm...I just know that I feel a bit lost here and that I dont really know what I should do now..Im hangin around here, my familys there, but they are not really "there"..theyre watching tv..and Im sitting in my room trying to find something that I could do but theres nothing that seems to make sense at all..I wanted to read a book (well to be honest not just one but about 3 or 4^^)...but I just dont feel like readin at the mom..
maybe its just becos Ive been surrounded of some awesome ppl the last few days..now I sit at home alone again..and I know that I should write an essay and that I should learn some business stuff..yeah maybe its the daily grind Im scared about.. jesus let me just fly away...
Freitag, 24. Oktober 2008
YOU are the one and only!! <3
Weißt du eigentlich was du bist für mich?
Alles andre als normal
und jederzeit loyal, royal
Du bist mein Fundament
Keine die mich so gut kennt,
keine die mich sieht wie du.
Old Shatterhand ich Winnetou
Immer werden wir so bleiben
Jung und frei und schön, wir beide.
Stehen auf der guten Seite
Jahr für Jahr.
Immer werden wir so bleiben,
lachen über schlechte Zeiten.
Deine Schmerzen sind auch meine.
Jahr für Jahr.
Weißt du eigentlich
was du tust für mich?
Wenn du meine Lasten trägst,
und dich mit meinen Feinden schlägst?
Ich vertrau dir mehr als mir,
und ich liebe dich dafür.
dass du bist wie du isst,
dass du niemals vergisst
was das wichtige ist.
Wir beide
Immer werden wir so bleiben.
Jung und frei und schön, wir beide
stehen auf der guten Seite.
Jahr für Jahr.
Immer werden wir so bleiben,
lachen über schlechte Zeiten.
Deine schmerzen sind auch meine.
Jahr für Jahr.
Jahr für Jahr.
we played a hundred songs, we prayed, we sang, we flew to england, we slept in a tent, we walked through the rain we were lying in the sun, we sat for hours on a place and watched people walking through the streets, we prayed for people, we talked for hours, good stuff, crazy stuff, sad stuff..and we ALWAYS found a way together...we always kept the friendship..and I SURE well do it in the future too..
nothings gonna stop us, noone could hold us back..were gonna conquer the world, were gonna LIVE life like noone could imagine..our friendship will NEVER die!!
its just...today grundkurs starts again...3 years ago at OUR grundkurs we talked the first time..our story began pretty funny..but it moved on and its the most serious friendship I ever had...YOU ARE THE BEST ONE OF THE BEST ONES!!
I love u!!
now look, where we are
you're in my heart now
and there's no escaping it for you
cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last
cause this is real, and this is good
it warms the inside just like it should
but most of all
most of all, it's built to last
cause you are the sun in my universe
consider the best when we felt the worst
and most of all, most of all
most of all, most of all,
most of all. most of all
it's built to last
Mittwoch, 22. Oktober 2008
He IS in control
sometimes Im such a stressful person..
I always wanna make everything on my own, I always wanna plan everything, I wanna know things immediatley...I want solutions for problems right now...
and there is one VERY important thing I forget when I am like that: GOD has everything in his hand.
He has a plan that is much bigger than what I expect and what I plan..its perfect and better than any plan I make could be..he LOVES me and he would never do anything thats not good for me.
IM GONNA FIND MY WAY...why shouldnt I??
the bible says in Mat. 6, 25-34:
25 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
so why do I always try to find answers and solutions for any problems..I guess I should really CHILL now and let it come like it comes..God is gonna do it alright..I wont make it any way...
So now Im gonna share some freetime, watchin some TV with my daddy just to chill out a bit..
HES GOT EVERYTHING IN HIS HAND..so why should I go on makin myself crazy??
Hes gonna bring me to the job I should do, hes gonna bring me to the bible school in bristol if he wants me there, he´ll bring me to an university someday if he wants me to study...
so everythings gonna be alright...THANKS FOR YOUR MERCY JESUS!!
I always wanna make everything on my own, I always wanna plan everything, I wanna know things immediatley...I want solutions for problems right now...
and there is one VERY important thing I forget when I am like that: GOD has everything in his hand.
He has a plan that is much bigger than what I expect and what I plan..its perfect and better than any plan I make could be..he LOVES me and he would never do anything thats not good for me.
IM GONNA FIND MY WAY...why shouldnt I??
the bible says in Mat. 6, 25-34:
25 Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
so why do I always try to find answers and solutions for any problems..I guess I should really CHILL now and let it come like it comes..God is gonna do it alright..I wont make it any way...
So now Im gonna share some freetime, watchin some TV with my daddy just to chill out a bit..
HES GOT EVERYTHING IN HIS HAND..so why should I go on makin myself crazy??
Hes gonna bring me to the job I should do, hes gonna bring me to the bible school in bristol if he wants me there, he´ll bring me to an university someday if he wants me to study...
so everythings gonna be alright...THANKS FOR YOUR MERCY JESUS!!
Dienstag, 21. Oktober 2008
beautiful life
I had such a good time while I was out for a walk today..
I danced.
I laughed.
I jumped around.
I sang.
I was full of joy.
I prayed.
I rested in my fathers love.
I watched the clouds passing by.
I stared into the blue sky.
I enjoyed to lie in the grass.
I was happy.
I thought about england.
I thought about that awesome summer that lies behind me..
I thought about the coming year.
I thought about the time I will spend in england next year.
I thought about a to do list with all the things I need to do this year, especially with Kaddi, before shes leaving <3
I loved and still love God ;)
I ate an apple *yummie*
I fell to the ground because Im too stupid to walk :D
I felt alive!
what an amazing life!
yesterday Ive been for a walk too..but with an old friend of mine (we know each other since we are 3)..we hadnt got lots do do with each other for a few years, but now we sometimes meet and have a good time..thats awesome.
and yesterday we collected some nuts, flowers and chestnuts..we felt like when we were young, becos we did it very often when we were kids...
I thank God for every of this wonderful days..and I thank God for the sun thats shining!! I LOVE it!!
I danced.
I laughed.
I jumped around.
I sang.
I was full of joy.
I prayed.
I rested in my fathers love.
I watched the clouds passing by.
I stared into the blue sky.
I enjoyed to lie in the grass.
I was happy.
I thought about england.
I thought about that awesome summer that lies behind me..
I thought about the coming year.
I thought about the time I will spend in england next year.
I thought about a to do list with all the things I need to do this year, especially with Kaddi, before shes leaving <3
I loved and still love God ;)
I ate an apple *yummie*
I fell to the ground because Im too stupid to walk :D
I felt alive!
what an amazing life!
yesterday Ive been for a walk too..but with an old friend of mine (we know each other since we are 3)..we hadnt got lots do do with each other for a few years, but now we sometimes meet and have a good time..thats awesome.
and yesterday we collected some nuts, flowers and chestnuts..we felt like when we were young, becos we did it very often when we were kids...
I thank God for every of this wonderful days..and I thank God for the sun thats shining!! I LOVE it!!
Montag, 20. Oktober 2008
save you..
take a breath,
I’ll pull myself together.
Just another step until I reach the door
you’ll never know the way,
it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
and there’s so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
if it takes you forever, I want you to know
when I hear your voice,
it’s drowning into whispers
you're just skin and bones
there’s nothing left to take
and no matter what I do
I can’t make you feel better
if only I could find the answer
to help me understand
that if you fall, stumble down,
I’ll pick you up off the ground.
If you lose faith in you,
I’ll give you strength to pull through.
Tell me you won’t give up,
cause I’ll be waiting here if you fall
you know I’ll be there for you
if only I could find the answer,
to take it all away
(Simple Plan - Save you)
Im so sorry for u and I know I cant really help u..
It hurts my soul to see u unhappy and Im trying to find a way to help u and to make u feel good..at least for a day...but it feels like there would be NOTHING I could do for u and thats what makes me sad!
I just wanna show u how much u mean to me and how much I like u and that u are someone Ill NEVER ever let down (Im trying to), becos u are one of those people Ive never really been disappointed of, even if I dont even know why..
u are so wonderful and precious...why cant u just see it???
I’ll pull myself together.
Just another step until I reach the door
you’ll never know the way,
it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something to take it all away.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
and there’s so many things that I want you to know
I won’t give up till it’s over
if it takes you forever, I want you to know
when I hear your voice,
it’s drowning into whispers
you're just skin and bones
there’s nothing left to take
and no matter what I do
I can’t make you feel better
if only I could find the answer
to help me understand
that if you fall, stumble down,
I’ll pick you up off the ground.
If you lose faith in you,
I’ll give you strength to pull through.
Tell me you won’t give up,
cause I’ll be waiting here if you fall
you know I’ll be there for you
if only I could find the answer,
to take it all away
(Simple Plan - Save you)
Im so sorry for u and I know I cant really help u..
It hurts my soul to see u unhappy and Im trying to find a way to help u and to make u feel good..at least for a day...but it feels like there would be NOTHING I could do for u and thats what makes me sad!
I just wanna show u how much u mean to me and how much I like u and that u are someone Ill NEVER ever let down (Im trying to), becos u are one of those people Ive never really been disappointed of, even if I dont even know why..
u are so wonderful and precious...why cant u just see it???
Sonntag, 19. Oktober 2008
better in time
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn`t know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deversed it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn´t turn on the TV,
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna let hurt my feelings
But thats the path I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since theres no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
Yes I do
It'll all get better in time
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(Leona Lewis - Better in time)
<3
I didn`t know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going, coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there? No one
Thinking that I deversed it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn´t turn on the TV,
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming
Don't wanna let hurt my feelings
But thats the path I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be OK
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since theres no more you and me
It's time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
Yes I do
It'll all get better in time
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals, too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve to
(Leona Lewis - Better in time)
<3
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