put me where I belong..

Who is the man I see
where I'm supposed to be?
I lost my heart, I buried it too deep
under the iron sea.

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball,
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful,
Mirror, mirror on the wall.

Lines ever more unclear,
Not sure I'm even here,
The more I look the more I think that I'm
starting to disappear.

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball,
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful,
Mirror, mirror on the wall.
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song,
I'm fading out, everything I know is wrong,
So put me where I belong.

I don't know where I am,
and I don't really care,
I look myself in the eye,
there's no one there.
I fall upon the earth,
I call upon the air,
but all I get is the same old vacant stare.

Oh, crystal ball, crystal ball,
Save us all, tell me life is beautiful,
Mirror, mirror on the wall.
Oh, crystal ball, hear my song,
I'm fading out, everything I know is wrong,
So put me where I belong.


I really love this song, and especially these days I feel like it belongs to me..
I´m running around here and there, and it´s okay..but where is my sense in life?
I´m still trying to start every day with jesus and end every day with jesus and I also try to walk with him through the whole day..
and it´s not like I wouldn´t feel he´s there..
but sometimes I´m just too tired..
I could sleep all the time and that´s really annoying because I really didn´t sleep less the last nights..it´s just like every new day is a new day with sooo many scrutinies and they seem to overwhelm me...where the hell is my freedom?? where is my peace and my LIFE?
I´d really like to be where I belong..in jesus arms..I want to be fully free.
but it doesn´t work..and it frustrates me a bit...
but I´ll go on and I won´t stop fighting..I won´t struggle and stumble anymore..
I´ll go on and leave everything that´s not GOD behind me..
and one day, I promise, I´ll be shining and shining, so that everyone can see what jesus causes in my heart and what he CAN and WILL cause in every other heart who easily opens up to give him the chance to change it.
come on jesus, let the fire burn!