prophecy

Well I held you like a lover
Happy hands and your elbow in the appropriate place

And we ignored our others, happy plans
For that delicate look upon your face

Our bodies moved and hardened
Hurting parts of your garden
With no room for a pardon
In a place where no one knows what we have done

Do you come
Together ever with him?
And is he dark enough?
Enough to see your light?
And do you brush your teeth before you kiss?
Do you miss my smell?
And is he bold enough to take you on?
Do you feel like you belong?
And does he drive you wild?
Or just mildly free?
What about me?

Well you held me like a lover
Sweaty hands
And my foot in the appropriate place

And we use cushions to cover
Happy glands
In the mild issue of our disgrace

Our minds pressed and guarded
While our flesh disregarded
The lack of space for the light-hearted
In the boom that beats our drum

Well I know I make you cry
And I know sometimes you wanna die
But do you really feel alive without me?
If so, be free
If not, leave him for me
Before one of us has accidental babies
For we are in love

Do you come
Together ever with him?
Is he dark enough?
Enough to see your light?
Do you brush your teeth before you kiss?
Do you miss my smell?
And is he bold enough to take you on?
Do you feel like you belong?
And does he drive you wild?
Or just mildly free?

What about me?
What about me?
(Damien Rice - Accidental babies)


das ist einfach immer wieder so ein lied wo ich mir die augen ausheulen koennte, warum auch immer..?
es ist so wunderbar, so ehrlich..so voller schmerz..und den hoert man raus..schon allein wenn man den text liest, und wenn man das lied dazu anhoert noch mehr..
und wenn ich mich an vergangene zeiten zurueckerinnere werd ich manchmal einfach n bisschen traurig..denn so lange ist das alles nicht her..und viele dinge die ich damals gesagt und aufgeschrieben habe stimmen einfach..there will never be anybody like you.
ich frag mich manchmal was wirklich die tiefste sehnsucht meines herzens ist?
wie find ich die? was muss ich tun um sie zu erreichen?
break all chains, let it go and just go for it?
schaetzungsweise muesste ich um meinen herzenswunsch zu erreichen alle sicherheit zuruecklassen und auf gott vertrauen und einfach mal losgehen und sehen was er daraus macht.
werd ich das jemals koennen? das frag ich mich ernsthaft! oder werde ich fuer immer ein mensch sein der sich selbst im weg steht um gluecklich zu werden? ach, I just don´t know...

gestern hab ich mir dann nochmal das tape angehoert was ich bekommen hab bei den manchestern..meine prophecy..und ich hab mir das mal aufgeschrieben und trags nun mit mir rum, um mich selbst dran zu erinnern :)
ich werd hier jetzt einfach mal das reinschreiben was mir selbst am wichtigsten ist!
this guy said:
"you are a carrier of gold.. the gold means love, which is the currency of heaven.you are having in in abundance, you´ll be showing it with grace. So I see you´re just gold - and it´s very pure, it´s pure love.
and you know that there are people who haven´t experienced love in a pure way, and so they are afraid to receive love, because noone is giving it out in a pure way. BUT I SEE YOU AS A PURE LOVE-GIVER!
you really give pure heavenly love, it´s not mixed in with these other things, exceptional things - it´s pure. I see you reflecting gods glory.
in heaven the pavements are are made out of gold, and they´re reflecting gods glory. they are so shining and they transformed us.
god says: I see my glory over there and it´s pleasing to me. he looks at you and he says ´I´m well pleased of you´.
I see just life coming up in you, I see air and stuff. He carved his name on it and made a plus and in the same time it brought leaves and full bright fruits.
blossoms, leaves, fully wraped fruit - I see it as NEW LIFE FOR YOU, just new life, and I see there´s a vision in you as well, the vision of a tiger.
just like you see something through the grass, you go for it and you get it.
and you´re going, just take the little black shadows..catch the with the boxes, the little boxes that are growing up in you.
but these are boxes that are dark, just like black hyenes...and you go for them, you catch them and you kill them and take them down.
God´s gonna use you in cutting through the plants of the enemy.
keep your eyes up, because the enemy is around the corner.
genesis chapter 4: ´sin is crashing at your door, it desires to have you, but you must master it.´
I just see it´s like mastering the sin over you, the ability to say no - and yes to god! just to say "I know who I have, I know whyt my identy in christ is".
So take this kingdom - TAKE IT, just take it to destroy the evil one, because this is what jesus came to do."

the other one said:
I see you with a icehoeckey-stick and you smash it hard, and it´s just like you can push everything away with the authority of God. You have the strength through god!"

das sind wunderbare bilder..wahrscheinlich fuer mich wirklich die schoensten die ich kriegen konnte! das ermutigt mich und ich werd versuchen auch so zu handeln.