its worth it all

One more time in my life I have to realize that things NEVER go like you expect them to..
Okay alright, I gotta admit that I somehow expected that it wont turn out to be like I wished it to...
somehow I just felt deep inside of me that it wont be that easy..
But somehow it just feels weird to notice that you have to change your dream a bit..
So one more time in this life I am allowed to go into this life-school with god again..and I think not it becomes even more exciting than ever before..because now I really gotta trust him, I need to hear what hes gotta say, what he wants me to do and where he wants me to go.
I have no idea about it right now..but Im sure hes gonna tell me when he thinks the time has come..
I have to say that its okay right now..I think God wants me learn that I cant always plan everything Im going to do...HE has it in his hands anyway...and he has only the best for me..so lets see..

And you know what? somehow it feels just good to be alive.
Im soo glad to get to manchester in 4 days I cant wait!! Because Im gonna have an awesome time there! And Im sure god will even change me there..because hes changing me every and every day I allow him to.
Now Im gonna go to a konfi-service and afterwards we´re gonna drive to the jesus treff to hear mal calledine..Im excited because he REALLY has something to tell..
I love this life..eventhough sometimes its not easy...but its worth it all..!!
Every single minute is worth it all!!