Actually Im pretty happy with my life at the moment!!
The sun is shining again, I know that spring is coming soon (it cant be long until spring is there), Ive got a cool internship and I hope Im gonna go to england in august...AND Im gonna visit kaddi in manchester soon! everythings cool!
only ONE thing bothers me...I still need a job! I need something to earn money...I NEED MONEY for england..and I have NO CLUE where I should get it from because EVERYWHERE Im trying to get a job they dont need anyone...feels like Ive asked EVERYWHERE..the only thing I could maye do is work in the cafeteria in...yeah..guess where?? In my old school...and thats the most horrible thing I could imagine...I would rather clean every flippin house in kirchheim than doing that..
I really need that money but thats something like soul-torture...
well lets just see what happens..I just hope that god will give me a job or that money falls from heaven or what do I know...:/
its definitely a difficult thing..
but still Im thankful that god changed me sooo much! Im on a good way, I know it..
And its getting better every day..and I realize that here are some people I can really have fun with! Some people I can trust..some people who care..and thats good to know when the best friend is over the sea ;)
And still I love her and I know shes the best friend i can have..no distance can keep us apart and nothing could seperate our hearts...now that I got that, and understand it. not just in my head but also in my heart, its alright!! Im lookin foreward to our time in manchester, it will be amazing!!
Mittwoch, 25. Februar 2009
Samstag, 21. Februar 2009
amazing God
Im absolutely amazed by God!!
Every and every day again I experience his great love for me, and every day again I have to make the decision if I trust in God and give it all to him or if I run my earthly life, trying to be good and successful - but in the end fail with it!
And the more often I decide to trust in him the more good things are happening.
Yesterday a good friend of mine told me something really encouraging! He´s been away for 5 months and he said "Im coming back and I see that you are the one that was growing the most. Look at you, you changed so much!!"
Wow, thats something that was soo good to hear!!
And I also see that God changed me a lot! He changed me in a positive way..and of course Im not perfect, I still got my faults and I still have days where Im not really sure if everything is alright..but Im on the way..yeah I feel that Im goin on and on, I step into Gods adventure for me and Im so excited what is to come!
I see his love and its so so SOOO big!!! I cant describe with words how happy his love makes me, but maybe I can describe it like that: I dont need a man who loves me at the moment, because I feel and know that theres a GOD who loves me even more than anyone could.
That doesnt mean that I dont want a partner someday, but I know that God has the right time for everything...And I know that God is the best lover I can have. The best daddy, the best saviour, the best friend, the best provider and the best encourager!!
Wow, can I have more of you Jesus?? please!!
Every and every day again I experience his great love for me, and every day again I have to make the decision if I trust in God and give it all to him or if I run my earthly life, trying to be good and successful - but in the end fail with it!
And the more often I decide to trust in him the more good things are happening.
Yesterday a good friend of mine told me something really encouraging! He´s been away for 5 months and he said "Im coming back and I see that you are the one that was growing the most. Look at you, you changed so much!!"
Wow, thats something that was soo good to hear!!
And I also see that God changed me a lot! He changed me in a positive way..and of course Im not perfect, I still got my faults and I still have days where Im not really sure if everything is alright..but Im on the way..yeah I feel that Im goin on and on, I step into Gods adventure for me and Im so excited what is to come!
I see his love and its so so SOOO big!!! I cant describe with words how happy his love makes me, but maybe I can describe it like that: I dont need a man who loves me at the moment, because I feel and know that theres a GOD who loves me even more than anyone could.
That doesnt mean that I dont want a partner someday, but I know that God has the right time for everything...And I know that God is the best lover I can have. The best daddy, the best saviour, the best friend, the best provider and the best encourager!!
Wow, can I have more of you Jesus?? please!!
Sonntag, 15. Februar 2009
preachin!!!
hallelujah!! I had such a cool weekend, and today was totally awesome!!
On Saturday I was soo glad to know that I got 2 days off from everything and everyone!!
So I took some time for me and god in the morning, went to horseback riding in the afternoon and met a friend and skyped with kaddi and went to the hot springs with my mum...I enjoyed it so much, except the fact that I fell on my elbow and my back because the floor was wet and slippery..that wasnt much fun because it hurt and it still does^^ but who cares..thats so typical for me..!!
so today I went to see chrissie and kerstin and we had such a cool day...we had breakfast at her church, afterwards we went for a walk with the dog and then we baked some "schneckennudeln". And THEN we went to young move in reichenbach...and I preached the first time in my life..
one hour before it started I was so excited, but then I listened to "I have found" by kim walker and some people prayed for me and that was soooo good..so before I had to preach I wasnt excited anymore and I had an awesome worship time..and then I had to preach and at the beginning it felt kind of weird...but ater a while I had sooo much fun!! It was sooo cool and felt so good because it really felt like God was using me!! Wow!!
so Im absolutely amazed and I coud go on preaching immediately, its so cool to tell people about God...I had such a cool time!! Thank Jesus, hes amazing, wonderful, glorious and the only real majesty!!
I have found a peace that plows through every storm
I have found a joy that jumps over sadness
I have found a love that lights up every room
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
I have found a trust that teaches how to rest
I have found a grace that guides me by the hand
I have found a strength that stands like a mountain
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
(Kim Walker - I have found)
On Saturday I was soo glad to know that I got 2 days off from everything and everyone!!
So I took some time for me and god in the morning, went to horseback riding in the afternoon and met a friend and skyped with kaddi and went to the hot springs with my mum...I enjoyed it so much, except the fact that I fell on my elbow and my back because the floor was wet and slippery..that wasnt much fun because it hurt and it still does^^ but who cares..thats so typical for me..!!
so today I went to see chrissie and kerstin and we had such a cool day...we had breakfast at her church, afterwards we went for a walk with the dog and then we baked some "schneckennudeln". And THEN we went to young move in reichenbach...and I preached the first time in my life..
one hour before it started I was so excited, but then I listened to "I have found" by kim walker and some people prayed for me and that was soooo good..so before I had to preach I wasnt excited anymore and I had an awesome worship time..and then I had to preach and at the beginning it felt kind of weird...but ater a while I had sooo much fun!! It was sooo cool and felt so good because it really felt like God was using me!! Wow!!
so Im absolutely amazed and I coud go on preaching immediately, its so cool to tell people about God...I had such a cool time!! Thank Jesus, hes amazing, wonderful, glorious and the only real majesty!!
I have found a peace that plows through every storm
I have found a joy that jumps over sadness
I have found a love that lights up every room
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
I have found a trust that teaches how to rest
I have found a grace that guides me by the hand
I have found a strength that stands like a mountain
I have found...I found You
You are all i want, You are all i need
Everything my heart could hope for
We are longing for the glory of the Lord
Cause we know there's so much more
(Kim Walker - I have found)
Mittwoch, 11. Februar 2009
circumstances
one more time in my life I realize that I fix too much on circumstances, people and the things Im used to..
And one more time in my life I realize that I cant fix my eyes upon this stuff becos it doesnt keep me safe..it doesnt stay the same most of the time..and its not what gives me security.
I realize that there are many problems in this world and that loads of things are happening that are not good..that are not easy to handle with..and that lots of people come to me with their problems..because I offer them that Im there for them..
And I like being there for them..as long as I have someone I can talk to about all the stuff...as long as there is someone who shares all those hard things with me..
And I know that there is God, and thats good! Im so thankful..butI also need someone around me who talks with me about it..who just listens to me when I tell of all the stuff people tell me...
Somehow Im jut not content with everything at the moment..I mean, there are awesome moments in my life, the best times are when Im around people, when we´re doing worship, when we pray or when we just talk..
but somehow somethings missing..somehow Im still alone..somehow some things are not alright..but I dont know what it is..I have to figure out whats wrong..
And one more time in my life I realize that I cant fix my eyes upon this stuff becos it doesnt keep me safe..it doesnt stay the same most of the time..and its not what gives me security.
I realize that there are many problems in this world and that loads of things are happening that are not good..that are not easy to handle with..and that lots of people come to me with their problems..because I offer them that Im there for them..
And I like being there for them..as long as I have someone I can talk to about all the stuff...as long as there is someone who shares all those hard things with me..
And I know that there is God, and thats good! Im so thankful..butI also need someone around me who talks with me about it..who just listens to me when I tell of all the stuff people tell me...
Somehow Im jut not content with everything at the moment..I mean, there are awesome moments in my life, the best times are when Im around people, when we´re doing worship, when we pray or when we just talk..
but somehow somethings missing..somehow Im still alone..somehow some things are not alright..but I dont know what it is..I have to figure out whats wrong..
Mittwoch, 4. Februar 2009
lazyness..
somehow Im really too lazy to write something these days..
oh yes Im soooo lazy, I dont even know why..
however...my internship began and actually its pretty cool, but I cant say much until now, so Im just excited how it will be in the future!
Unfortunetely I do not find that much time for God and me at the moment..and I dont like that.
Because I need time with my God, otherwise I become weak and weary.
You know that when you do so many things for gods kingdom that you do not find time to live relationship with him? thats mad!
But Im realising more and more how important personal relationships are for me..
thas so good.
Im thinkin a lot about my future at the moment..about england..somehow Im a bit scared about it, maybe thats the reason why I just dont finish my application..and I hate the fact that I dont have a job to earn some money..I still have to pay back some money to my dad for my driving licence...and he wont stop telling me this until he has that flippin money..and how should I give it to him without a job? FLIP!
whatever..Gods my provider, I still believe this..and Im sure he will do something!
oh yes Im soooo lazy, I dont even know why..
however...my internship began and actually its pretty cool, but I cant say much until now, so Im just excited how it will be in the future!
Unfortunetely I do not find that much time for God and me at the moment..and I dont like that.
Because I need time with my God, otherwise I become weak and weary.
You know that when you do so many things for gods kingdom that you do not find time to live relationship with him? thats mad!
But Im realising more and more how important personal relationships are for me..
thas so good.
Im thinkin a lot about my future at the moment..about england..somehow Im a bit scared about it, maybe thats the reason why I just dont finish my application..and I hate the fact that I dont have a job to earn some money..I still have to pay back some money to my dad for my driving licence...and he wont stop telling me this until he has that flippin money..and how should I give it to him without a job? FLIP!
whatever..Gods my provider, I still believe this..and Im sure he will do something!
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