ready to break through

this network-camp..
I think it was the most challenging camp I´ve ever been to.
I´m not the person who easily talks to strangers and tells about his life and so on.
so I had my little problems at the beginning to talk to people sitting next to me at breakfast, lunch and dinner.
but in fact that´s not the biggest challenge god gave me.
I know what he wanted to tell me.
on this camp I´ve been on an everlasting up and down, up and down. this can be very hard and it´s not really encouraging at the time all the stuff happens.
but by looking back I see that god moved a lot in me. Inmy thinking, in my visions, and yes, I learned and experienced some new stuff.
I loved to get to know people from domino deeper. it´s good to know with who you are working with and it helps to see the visions of those other dominos.
I loved the talks about girls stuff and just being stupid because god loves us although we are :)
What I loved most were the worship times..it was such a blessing to be free before god. it was free worship without anything you HAD to do.
It was good what mel told us about gods kingdom coming.
and maybe we have found some new points and visions for domino, just how gods kingdom could come to kirchheim..I´m sure we´re on a good way.
It was a new and challenging experience to walk through the streets of geislingen and ask people to pray for the and stuff.
But there were also some personal things that really cut me down and almost made me crazy. Felt like breaking down and nothing to do against that.
at the end when we drove home I felt like I´m not ready to leave now, and to be honest, a part of me is still up there on the nordalb, because I can´t just leave everything right now. too many things unsaid and undone.
I can´t find my inner peace at the moment..but one thing I know for sure is:
God, I´m ready to go.
Open up new doors for me and you´ll find me following your spirit.
there´s nothing more I wish and there´s nothing in this world what could hold me back..nothing.
you know that god?
I know it now...

but nevertheless I want to tell you that I never meant to hurt you this way.
and you know that I love you and that I never wanna be guilty for you being down.
I know I am and I know I will be,
but I also know that we will have our way together in the end...however it will look like, I don´t know, but I know that this is not the end for us.